Thursday, 25 December 2008; 9:35 PM
So there's no more that I can be in need of.
Cos He's filled me all and completely
HAHA.
Jiali's gotten a watch from the boyfriend
Seowrong's gotten a wallet from the boyfriend
Tell me I'm not jealous.
haha I'm such a sinner
Told myself mustn't compare guys on the same standard.
Bobby's just a kid. I can't put expectations of a man on him.
But sometimes I just can't help but be envious of my girlfriends
like ZOMG their boyfs are so nice to them.
sinful... how very sinful
Did I mention...
That I still hated the fact that Bobby has his stupid curfew...
Bobby isn't available on Saturdays, Sundays, Public Holidays, Eves and day after Public Holidays and nights.
At times I really feel like giving up
Leaving a
but I just can't.
I just have to be loyal to the Bobby...
Dear sisters....
Thanks for flaunting your dears to me.
I'm now jealous yeahhhhhh...
Just give Bobby a few years...
A few years.....
A few years.....
A few years.....
A few years.....
A few years.....
; 12:23 AM
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Merry Christmas
Really tired
Been having not enough sleep and rest for the past two days.
Tuesday
Training in the morning. After training, I went home to pack my stuff and more...
Went to meet Bobby and drank my oreo crush
When to Woodlands to buy mum present
Then went to Khatib to P6 class gathering.
Then went to chalet
Wednesday
Played mahjong with the teammies.
Then blackjack
Then daidee
Then slept from 6 to 11
Went to service from 2-5
Met Bobby and family for dinner. (xD)
so tired.
SNORE.
Sunday, 21 December 2008; 12:59 PM
http://magicallymusic.blogspot.com
HAHA. I don't understand what he's talking about.
I'm so bored. Tuition later.
And I seriously want to sleep.
BLogging for the sake of blogging. BYE
Thursday, 11 December 2008; 1:05 AM
So where does dad fall?
Why are most dads caring towards their families?
Why are most dads not abandoning their families?
Why are most dads willing to spend time, and their money they earn on their families, and not outsiders?
Why don't most dads put their families into misery by choosing to leave them?
Why do families last complete so long and yet my dad choose to fucking break it up?
Tell me, who's the strong girl?
Chia Pei Woon without the Chia
Yeah, incomplete, but stronger when alone
I'm not out here trying to whine about how sad my life is. But i'm just feeling really fucked up i need an outlet. Sorry my dear 5readers, i'll bore you to death
I hate to see how fathers are so nice to their children.
Or how understanding mothers can get.
It's not me who's unwilling to be nice to my parents.
It's just that, they're forcing me into circumstances that I cannot take. And I have to be defiant.
He's going overseas to get another wife.
Piece of bullshit.
Batam, chance of getting aids from women - 30%
Out of 10, 3 are HIV positive.
What about my dad?
Then, what about my mum.
SO tired of having night movies acted out every night.
Screaming, shouting, crying.
Why the fuck is life like that?
Forget it.
I'm a fatherless child.
Cos he only fufilled the first part of defination.
the 2nd part is left blank.
Tell me my surname now?
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Sunday, 7 December 2008; 10:15 PM
Jus texted Bobby.
I continued my lie of closing my blog because of him.
He seemed guilty, but so what?
Tmr's first month.
&& my dear Bobby is sadly unavailable on Saturdays, Sundays and Public Holidays.
Tmr's a PH.
No Bobby.
Having the celebration on Tuesday.
Probably baking a cake after training.
I'm obviously too broke to go for expensive events like watching movies, ice-skating etc.
By the way, the same night I'm meeting an old friend from a long time ago.
Hahha. Typical me.
'Cheating' on my boyf immediately after saying bye to him.
Yeah, that's me.
Anyway, please keep content within this blog secret.
I'm feeling really screwed up about Bobby.
I don't know what message to send to him, so I'd rather act normal for now.
Dun miss me people xD
; 5:16 PM
Time flies. I swear. It's amazing how I've spent my 2nd month at Kembangan.
We're gonna watch movie on Tuesday.
But
I don't know.
Guess what.......
I'm still having mixed feelings.
Let me be very blunt.
I'm not letting go of Bobby cos I don't want to be alone again(like Bobby says when I ask why he wants a long relationship instead of a short one).
But I'm willing to let go cos Bobby isn't the kinda 'happy-attached-to-boyfriend' type.
Thus the mixed feelings.
I guess for my personality is for good boys to get really committed and serious about
Whereas get playboys to play and thrown about.
Self explainatory.
But why?
I just don't understand what's 'it's just you that's getting me serious' kinda thing.
It's actually a good thing that guys get serious about you.
But in fact I rather he wasn't.
Friday, 5 December 2008; 6:14 PM
Was supposed to meet bobby for volleyball today.
He didn't.
Cos 'my parents dk why today neh go work lehh'
and of course, he's simply too lazy to go out.
Back and knees damn pain from the swim today
I swear.
It's time to get rid of bobby.
guys(bobby and sean) are always like that.
When i try to dump them, they cry and ask for pity.
And as you guys know, I melt under tears...
But I just can't stand life under (them)
I tried, I jus cant live life with them.
They always claim that "I'm trying very hard to make both ends (family and girlf) meet."
Piece of bullshit.
I don't mean shit to (them)
Sean's like this, Bobby too.
Sometimes I jus feel lyk giving up
Maybe just not sometime. Most of the time.
And sometime I feel pity for them.
I'm jus not determined enough.
why doesn't Bobby realise that he's not doing enough?
or is it just me asking for too much?
but you mean asking your boyf to come out and accompany you (every other day) during the holidays is too much?
I'm tired of telling them, (_______), you're not doing enough. This isn't what I need only.
Each time I remind them, two days later, they'll forget.
Someone tell me, it's just me.
Tell me I'm not troubled.
; 8:26 AM
1.5kg is a whole BIG DEAL for me.
For close to 3years, my weight has been going upupup with no sign of coming down at all.
After 3years, I finally see a little sign of it coming down.
I swear I'm really happy.
I can proudly announce that I'm now weighing a mere 54kg(?hahha)
Yeah, fat among all female readers of my blog.
But still, it's a really great achievement.
Just think about me being 56kg two weeks ago.
Am currently having craving for a lot of food. Maggie mee, duck rice, potato chips, Macs, KFC, Pizza, Poaky(the strawberry sticks? I actually have one box at home, but I'm not gonna eat it), cookies. You name it, I crave for it.
Nonetheless, I'm not gonna succumb to temptations.
I wanna eat sakura.
Fresh salmon.........
Oyster............
Cheese sausage.....
AH fuck.
NOOOOOOO!!
Skipped yesterday's dinner.
I swear I'm damn bloody hungry now.
I used to scold people who go on diets...
LIke "wtf. So skinny still diet. Later got wind they fly away."
Or "KNN fuck la. Why torture yourself by going on a diet? Just eat while you can, life's gonna end soon anyway."
And now, I'm just among that bunch of idiots.
RAWR!
Have to lose weight quickly
Attract other guys
Dump Bobby asap.
I'm kidding.
HAHHA.
I'm fat I'm fat I'm fat I'm fat I'm fat I'm fat I'm fat I'm fat
Sian only.
The only thing I'm afraid of now is that I'll have no perservance.
Maybe I'll just start eating my favourite food like 10mins after I finish blogging LOLS.
How to hit 50kg by March? (that's like 6kg within 4months. Crazy only.)
BYEBYE!
P.S.: Blitch, how's peng peng?
Wednesday, 3 December 2008; 8:32 PM
What happened to "I hope to see you soon"?
Load of bullshit
What came out instead was the insensitive remarks made by you.
Fuck you bitch.
this morning, I was at 2I's chalet.
at 7am, BObby texted me, told me to go home at 9am.
I did.
While on the train, we were texting each other
Suddenly, he asked me, "why you keep calling me so many times a day?"
I replied, "sorry la, I didn't know you don't like it."
He replied, "Alright, nevermind. I jus don't like it when you you3 shi4 mei2 shi4 call me."
So insensitive.
I'm so gonna hate you for that.
I've given up, completely.