it's not the end result that matters what matters most is the process and the lesson learnt during it. it's unrightful freedom in a wrong manner it felt good, but it was wrong
More pictures soon yeah? I'm leavin the house for school soon xD
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Thursday, 30 October 2008; 9:13 PM
&& all imma do now is to stand at a corner and laugh at you it feel good when someone who has hurt you Gets himself hurt at the end of the day
The world is round Therefore the people are round too. If B hurts A, C will come back to hurt B When C hurts B, D will come around to hurt C. And as D hurts C, A will come around to hurt D.
I love circular worlds. I makes me feel so good to see you hurting yourself.
Go feel emotional Go feel sad Pity doesn't exist in my dictionary anymore I could do this to the person who contributed to my birth I could do this to you too. Don't worry I love you not
Even thinking of you makes me feel happy. Oh did I mention, Even thinking of you feeling hurt makes me feel happy.
The best mood I can be !! Teeheezxzx
Alright. Supper later. Nap now, Later, supper@Kembangan. Interested anyone?
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Monday, 27 October 2008; 10:12 AM
if that's what you called explaining all matters to me already you have ain't explained anything yet.
Alright, I admit it. I was there. But you're here too, aren't you?
I swear you're a bitch, like I've said long ago.
teehee. my boyf's ignoring me again. alright, I shall not blame him After all, he's taking the Os this year. zailorh! so pro !!
i'm really tired of explaining matters to you anymore. All I can say is that: you don't fucking care anymore and it's time I didn't bother.
It wasn't my fault. I wasn't given a chance to say no. It was only after you made your decision and told me about it then I found out.
I swear this is very fair.
Before I fell asleep last night I promised myself this I'm never gonna hurt myself because of you anymore I've tired to understand why you did so. Yet over the past 5 months I still couldn't fucking get over you. How many people can get as loser as me?
It's time that I enjoyed myself In the love that nobody can take away from me. Because only in that love, Nobody can hurt me.
To do list (according to priority): 1. Forget that past 5months guy 2. Love Him more 3. Forgive myself of my sins 4. Stop all the nonsense that I have been doing 5. Lead the correct life 6. Start studying 7. Love The Mother 8. Start preparing for tuition (@ 11am, now it's 1030am) 9. Stop swearing ( I mean, vulgarities, not that kind "I swear" thing) 10. Start volleyball-ing 11. Forgive and forget what we have done.
LONG LIST.
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Sunday, 26 October 2008; 4:20 PM
If there's such a thing called emotional, that's what i'm feeling now.
If there's such a thing called disappointment, that's what i'm feeling now.
If there's such a thing called fear, that's what i'm feeling right now.
If there's such a thing called heartbroken, that's what i'm feeling now.
If there's such a thing called numb, that's what i'm feeling now.
If there's such a thing called regret, that's what i'm feeling now.
If there's such a thing called hate for self, that's what i'm feeling now.
This is a taste of myself. This is the first time i felt so much of regret, pain, hate for self, emotional, disappointment in myself.
Especially on this fateful day. Mum, i love you happy birthday
This is me Always regretting only after it's too late. Or perhaps, it's fated... Done this many times, but why today.
It's telling me to stop.
I started this because of him. But as of today, it will stop. Because i love you mum
In the world, there are feelings called emotional, disappointment, fear, heartbroken, numb, regret and hate. Such feelings are intensified by feeling them upon yourself.
i cant never forgive myself. What about the supposed 'holy life' i'm supposed to lead? I'm chasing after the wrong 'freedom in life' this freedom ends today
i am going to change.
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Friday, 24 October 2008; 3:29 PM
Bought The Graphic Calculator today. I swear it's weighing my whole bag down...
Currently in a train at habourfront mrt. Making use of the free -------------------------- part II
... ...WiFi at the mrt station Hahha. I lost connection as the train went off.
I'm home. Had a few minutes with The GC. After removing it from the container, it's still pretty much heavy. Oh well. Will have to bear with it for the next few years.
Was pretty much excited about that piece of metal Then, I thought it was stupid. I mean, why would The School want the students to bring such a heavy piece of shit to school daily (math lesson happen daily) when we're even barely sec4 ! I mean, a scientific calculator could do similar stuff too.
That's why. Crap school. Crap system Crap organisers Crap leaders How fit are they to teach us
This morning as I woke up, Clazee Cuzeen told me "Eh wen. You know last night u sleep talk all the way?"
Shocking, but true.
I'm used to sleeping alone, or at least without anyone watching me. I don't usually know that I sleep talk, unless my mum tells me. Luckily my talking didn't make sense, or else The Cuzeen would know what I was dreaming about. I'm afraid of blurting out my secrets in my dreams. Teehee.
Cuzeen even says that I punch and kick while I sleep (damn fit eh? Workout while sleeping) Hmm. It seems that I was probably trained in a fighting areana to sleep. Hahha.
it was a scary dream, and I was really freaked out. I hope never to see you (not even in my dreams) again. FUCK u.
This morning, I woke up finding that The Cuzeen is not beside me. Please don't misunderstand, we don't sleep on the same bed, or whatsoever We sleep on seperate beds, with hers slightly higher and beside mine. ogay, sorry, i'm digressing. Anyway, I saw that she isn't beside me. The first thought was Where the fuck is that bitch? Why is she up so early? I checked the time, 5.46am, slightly earlier than my normal timing. Then my second thought was I bet she sneaked out la. KNN never call me out also. Aiya maybe she tried calling me, but I simply didn't wake up. So I forgave her for not calling me. I tried to sleep for another 5mins before waking up. Then I thought, Cannot be lehh. If she went out she would have told me. And the room door wouldn't be left open. The lights wouldn't be left turned on too. Luckily I heard her cough from downstairs. Then I safely went back to sleep.
It was only later today that I found out she was having high fever and low BP and low heart rate in the morning. Like amazing. This is like the first time I found out how isolation cases of O level works. At the same time, I realised how stupid invigilator could be. I mean, if you went to an O level exam with a doctor proven certificate, and the doctor specifically states that you have to be isolated, why should the invigilators trust it? And she even asked, "Is the disease contagious?" STOOOOOPED
Anyway, according to The Cuzeen and her experience in isolation room, Each time you put your head down to rest / fall asleep , they will start a timer And towards the end of exams, they will add back the rest time for you. That's cool la!!! Oh well, it' isn't very cool to be sick during O levels
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Tuesday, 21 October 2008; 9:10 PM
Brother says : Hey. (: How r u? F.ing tired. Brother says: Why? Cos I slept at 130 last night and woke up at 545 this morning. Brother says: Hm. You should get more sleep tonight. Hahha. Ya manzxzx. You're right. Oh anyway, training was a terror today Felt like puking halfway, so didn't train. Brother says: Oh. You better take care. Alright. I'm going offline. Really tired. I swear I'll seeya around soon yeah? Teeheezxzx Good night bro! Brother says: That's early. Good night. (:
Where the fuck are you? Miss talking to you manzxzx. Somebody talk to me. shit
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Monday, 20 October 2008; 7:22 PM
Hey people! Be jealous of me !! I'm so gonna pamper myself like crazy this Christmas
I fucking found a job, and I'm gonna get money !!
New outfits, new bags, new heels, new everything
Another reason to feel jealous, my job's paying $5 an hour. Like hello, I'm happy it's not paying BELOW average, like $2.55 an hour (mac) or $4 at Delifrance. I'm sosososososo thankful.
I'm thinking of you I can't help but secretly smile I facinate about things that the two of us can do. I think.. . . . . .. I'm crazy over you MONEY
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Sunday, 19 October 2008; 8:31 PM
Today's tuition Was late. Didn't understand a crap out of it.
After tuition was a terror. Sec4 English class wasn't there. For the first time, NO sec4 class No Jeremy No Alicia No Tse Ching No Zheng Yang No Jing Ting No Yu Qing No Kok Wai No Joel No bunch of jokers. Nobody to accompany me on the train on the way home. No more after-class daidis, bluff No more illegal gathering along the stairways after class. No more of PLEnglishSec3(2007)PLEnglishSec4(2008)
It was really sad. I mean after Physics today I went out of the classroom There was nobody in the opposite classroom. I swear I was really sad. The whole passageway used to be so noisy, so crowded with the Sec4 bunch-of-jokers. Now, they're not there. With the Sec3 physics class people leaving one by one. I feel LONELY. Emotional.
Nonetheless, good job guys.. Get graduated QUICKLY! Jiayou for the O levels. I will not miss you
------------------------- Brother's leaving tomorrow. To Beijing For six weeks. Nobody to claim that I'm f.ing tired after one day of nonsense Nobody to tell me what to do when I'm feeling emotional, like now ------------------------
The Clazee Cuzeen's taking her O levels tomorrow. ------------------------
It's time for pictures. My blog is boring.
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; 8:58 AM
Went swimming with the sister and the family and together with the mother yesterday. Had a real nice dinner. Didn't have much pictures. Well, excluding those in bikini. I swear I looked fat.
Apparently photoshoot during the dinner happened to be the time when I was taking food. Swayness. Lol I went against my own principal to take pictures without makeup. Well, who cares.
There's like two videos of some bitches in my phone. Deciding whether or not to post it here, or send to the school. Oh well.
IN case you didn't realise, I hated rejection. No one actually reject me of what I wanted. Not even you are allowed to do so. KNNBFU
Some dishonest people told me to leave he (and his blog alone) but apparently he did come from his blog's links to my blog. I didn't visit his blog because he told me to leave him alone But he's being F.ing dishonest. I hate dishonesty.
It's time to get some action into my life. My blog is getting boring.
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Saturday, 18 October 2008; 9:24 AM
I'm very very very tired (at least I was) I'm very very very lazy (at least I was)
I went to mug with the Cuzeen yesterday at parkway. DAMMIT after eoys still mug no life. But who cares. Who ask The Cuzeen to be My Cuzeen. Mug jiu mug lorh. No big deal. So cuzeen, u better fucking do well for your O levels or I'm gonna chop u into 100 000 pieces after your Os.
I'm supposed to ahve uploaded some pictures. Supposed to la. But I didn't.
Okay, I'm gonna wake the Cuzeen up at 10. Ohh I'm giving her ample rest okay.
Last night, I went home from mugging I dived into the bed And slept. Without changing, without taking out the handphone, nothing Just dive and sleep.
Call me a pro or what Okay I'm oging home. Expect more pictures then. Teeheezxzx
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Friday, 17 October 2008; 8:23 PM
My 4x4x4 cube Poor little bitch
At least I've done my best.
And Jelly this is for you.
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Thursday, 16 October 2008; 1:34 AM
So much to blog about. SO little time This was from last week's tuition @ PL Education. PL should thank me for advertisement. Anyway, my friend was colourblind. The above two videos are taken when we found out he was colourblind. I know it's really mean to laugh, but it's really amazing to find out your friend is colourblind And ironically he takes pure Geography. HOW TO DO MAP READING?
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Wednesday, 15 October 2008; 10:42 PM
I swear this was a joke manzxzx. We(poopoo, lianzxzx and fenfen) were at commonwealth busstop waiting for zhenzhi. Jiali had a long long balloons. She was pumping the ballon P > L : Help me check if the balloon still can. (cos she scared pump too much will burst) L > P : Okay still can... Continue... Okay okay stop already... F > PL : I think still can a bit more lehh. P pumps one more gust of air inside *POMP*
Peiwoon went crazee over baboons (balloons)! Thanks to jiali, all unglam pictures. Teeheezxzx
Told you jiali always takes UNGLAM pictures.
THis wasn't by me. Jiali took it herself. I merely blogged it. Teehee
FUCK. Knn. I don't like this image. I was at 1st floor with a 7kg bag. I live at the 11th floor Get what i mean?
T.T
I wanna see The Boyf
WHere are u blitch?
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Tuesday, 14 October 2008; 10:12 PM
It doesn't help So why bother?
You don't even wanna help yourself. What more do you expect me to do?
I'm peiwoon I'm not superwoman If you don't tell me what you don't know I won't be able to help you.
I'm sorry for the temper I lost today. I guess I totally lost myself. It doesn't help, does it?
If you think I haven't done enough I'm sorry. This is all I can do. Don't expect me to do the shit for you You're responsible for studying yourself I am not obliged to study for you.
Today I rushed off. Avoided you. Why? Because I didn't understand. i felt shit Thanks.
I've tried to put the blame away from myself KNN also not I never study why I blame myself KNN !
and sometimes I just feel like giving up
The above was dedicated to my close-to-heart.
The Boyf.
Teehee. I don't like short replies. Cos they always leave me with nothing to say.
Let's go out for a meal one day. That's being random lolzxzxzx.
&& peiwoon expresses her love towards physics && TheGirlf expresses her love to TheBoyf && physics heartszxzx peiwoon backzxzx
KNN fuck la.
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Monday, 13 October 2008; 9:21 PM
I swear that poopy is being fucking mean today. Thanks to her I got a very nice picture on her blog. Thanks sister!
Knn.
-------------------------------
i've thought about it.
i'm too complicated about you.
i'm worried for you
cos you know nothing about my background
You'd make a good friend
but too innocent for a boyf.
If you're reading this, I'll have to apologise.
It's not about the 'I can't promise anything' thing anymore.'
cos
idk.
all you know about me is nothing.
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This explain it. Aggressive player.
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; 11:53 AM
the picture explains it all... Currently at macs at habourfront with The Teammate. I swear she's stupid. I mean it. She brought her laptop here. And she stupidly thought her card reader could read her phone's memory card. A serious case of mild-retardness... She prove to suck... The memory card ended up stuck in the card reader. Fucking stupid*laughs at her* even had to have me help her remove.
Peiwoon saves the day!
The most retarded thing is that her laptop has bluetooth she could actually send her pictures into her laptop.
I swear she's stupid but nonetheless i still lurbslurbs her... Teeheezxzx...
Hey people. Sorry for the lack of posts... Promise to come back soon. Promises are meant to be broken.
Evidence that we're studying.(at least i think she is. I'm slacking and blogging)
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Sunday, 12 October 2008; 10:22 PM
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Saturday, 11 October 2008; 12:15 AM
Today wasn't really good to start but really sweet to end.
math paper was really bad. I didn't know how to do the stuff la. And I didn't dare to tell mum. So people, shut up about it.
Geography was fine. At least those that I studied I know how to do. Relatively simple, yet marks lost lost lost!
After exam was then the fun part. I went to find Poopoo@Vivocity I swear she's a starbucks addict shiolzxzx.
Met The Boyf After SO SO SO SO SO long ( 3 years manzxzx ) We went window shopping @ NUM and Ripcurl ANd I got to put THE BOYF behind a skirt.
We went to Toys'R'US I swear Pooh was cute!
The Poopoo and The Boyf were such jokes! && The Boyf was shy... ... Poopoo, as usual, was the shameless blitch. Nonetheless, I still lurbbs euu sorhh...
Enjoyed myself with the jokes today.
The Boyf had to leave first. So threw us back alone. Went peepee, walk walk, food food Then busbus. YES. I BUS-ed With Poopy straight home. Sending her home. STUPID GUYS. WHY CANT THEY TAKE THIS JOB. now I have to do it. and KNN I came back to Kembangan all the way. Far eh?
i inititally wanted to do it today; but extention shiols!! Teehee i'll treasure the extension then.
Came home. Came online. The Boyf was there
So we talked. Teehee. && I swear that the Boyf was sweet.
The Girlf is setting up the table 091008: HEY THE BOYF ! 5.daniel agger or daniel choo///: yah? The Girlf is setting up the table 091008: Do you play guitar? 5.daniel agger or daniel choo///: a lil. y? The Girlf is setting up the table 091008: Kewl shoil The Girlf is setting up the table 091008: I must go learn manzxzx The Girlf is setting up the table 091008 changes her name to The Boyf is ignoring. The Brother, talk to me leii !! [ 091008 ] 5.daniel agger or daniel choo///: Sry 5.daniel agger or daniel choo///: Sry 5.daniel agger or daniel choo///: I practicing guitar The Boyf is ignoring. The Brother, talk to me leii !! [ 091008 ]: oh The Boyf is ignoring. The Brother, talk to me leii !! [ 091008 ]: ogay The Boyf is ignoring. The Brother, talk to me leii !! [ 091008 ]: *the girlf seeks some attention* 5.daniel agger or daniel choo///: i can't play for you to hear marh 5.daniel agger or daniel choo///: Unless I call and let you hear. The Boyf is ignoring. The Brother, talk to me leii !! [ 091008 ]: Ogay.
*Three seconds later, phone rang*
I swear he was sweet.
Jiali is attention seeking too. This is a public annoucnement to the world: Please buy jiali nicenice chocolates, whether you like her or not, or if you're intending to jio her, get her nicenice chocolates then.
This is one of the first times over a few days that I've made a change Translating from Chinese into English instead of the traditional Chinese to English.
Today's post is slightly earlier I swear that I'll sleep early. Because there's exams tomorrow. I'll have the keep this post short. Thus I'll delete some portions from the Chinese post and not translate it.
Manzxzx. I feel like giving up. PEIWOON PEIWOON WAKE UP WAKE UP! Focus on revisions. PW FTW (*Blood flows out of eyes, ears, nose, mouth)
------------ Nowadays everyone's getting attached && I swear I'm out of place.
------------ Lost a friend today. It's fine. I rather things be like this I can't stand making myself this cheap anymore.
At least there's something to be happy about today. Poopy came to pei me today. We played pool today. && guess what? Someone as no-skill as jiali could actually own me 4-0 (different games) SOBS
Ogay people, I'm going off. Remember to tagzxzxzx.
Teehee.
Cuzeen Are we studying tmr? MSN/Text me.
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; 11:47 AM
I swear I'll leave it alone & when I swear I mean it.
Tralala-ed ;
; 1:42 AM
Shitzxzx.
I just exposed myself.
Yes, I do still play pokemon yellow.
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Tuesday, 7 October 2008; 2:59 AM
Good morning peiw\ Good night world.
Good night peiw\ Good morning world.
Been having abnormal sleeping times for a few days. While it had been fun to study into the wee hours, my day isn't very nice actually. It's a proven fact that I like the night more, for various reasons.
One being the fact that everyone else is asleep, && I have the whole house to myself. Perhaps exclude the part where I don't seem to get to make a lot of noise. But that's fine. I'm actually quite a quiet girl when I'm at home.
suddenly. i don't know. maybe it's just the feeling I WANT TO PLAY POOL
Went to study at PP yesterday. Maybe I should continue from where I left off from the previous post
After I blogged, I continued to mug(at a fucking slow rate) my SS, then proceeded on to a little of physics. At 6am, I went to sleep. Or at least I tried to.
But unfortunately, I woke clazee cuzeen up. Or maybe she was already awake to start with. That clazee blitch kept talking to me from 6 to 6.30am (at least)
I swear I was fucking tired. She says she can't sleep. But ironically we both ended up waking up at 10am (or so) For me it's normal, because I slept at 6. For her, not quite. She slept at 2am last (last)night.
Wanted to go town, but decided to go PP instead Had breakfast, dillly dally for a while Got to library at 1pm.
Clazee Cousin says she's hungry. Decides to go PP to eat (@MOS)
Saw a bunch of her school people. Studied + Shopped I went bra shopping Fucking hell I changed in and out of bras at least 20 times yesterday!!! And came home empty handed (Waste my time)
Decided to walk pass RS (I and II).
Guess who I saw!!! (it's not a question, please don't tag an answer at my blog. Not only will I kill you if you try to attempt this 'question', but the girlfriend will too)
I swear this is FUCKING coincidental. Clazee Cuzeen and I were still gossipping about him (before he appeared) && fuck, he just *piew* and appeared in front of me. KNS.
I went "What are you doing here?" he refused to say what he was doing though I bet he skipped tuition at PP. hahha.
Hahha. Anyway, had dinner and went home. I slept. Clazee Cuzeen studied. I woke up to (try to start to) study. Clazee Cuzeen went to sleep. No more of Clazee Cuzeen for the next 20hours.
Anyway, I'm studying at home tomorrow. Poopy's coming. Shall text lianzxzx tmr to see if she's coming over. Fucking lazy to translate.
I swear I'm fucking sway Q: What's more sway than spilling a sweetened drink? A: Spilling another sweetened drink 4 hours later.
Repeat after me: Peiwoon is fucking sway.
at 10pm, I spilled Coffee that I koped from cuzeen* at 2am, after cuzeen went to sleep, I continued to mug, and I spilled milk cuzeen poured for me. *cuzeen - cousin
Alright, not the time to brood over the fact that I'm pissed. (or very pissed) It's time to study XD
I miss you babe. I suddenly realise that I'm treating 'me's like the way u treated me. Be it Cuzeen, Poopy. if I sounded like a lesbian it's all your fault. Because I merely did what you did. U held onto me to stop me from falling on the train. U lent a shoulder to sleep on/cry on. U carried stuff that were too heavy for 'me'. U got the drinks ready when 'I' was bloody thirsty.
王八:特地给你译的。感激我吧...
有什么比把水撒落一地更糟? 就是在四个小时内把水撒了两次
跟我说一次:佩纹非常倒霉
10pm,我撒了表姐喝了一半的咖啡 2am,表姐去睡了,我继续读。我又把表姐给我倒的牛奶给撒了。
好啦!没时间浪费了! 继续读书咯!
*下面那一段我不太会译。想知道内容你打给我吧...我会大概说出来*
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Wednesday, 1 October 2008; 1:01 AM
Translation Assignment :: 翻译作业
“Chew?” the lady asked, puzzled. She was about to say, “Is that a Chinese name? But you don’t look Chinese,” when Gregory said “H-C-T-I-W.” “Is that your first or last name?” the lady asked. “I think it’s her only name,” Gregory said hesitantly. “Her?” the lady asked. “The lady I’m buying the butter for,” Gregory said. “Oh,” said the supermarket lady. “Address?” “She lives in the gingerbread house in the forest,” Gregory said. “I beg your pardon,” the lady said. “The gingerbread house in the forest. It’s between here and the farm where I live,” and then, as an afterthought, he had added, “It’s got chocolate trim” The lady raised a sceptical eyebrow but wrote, “Gingerbread house in the forest with chocolate trim”.
“Phone?” she asked. “I don’t think she has one,” Grogery said. “E-mail?”
“Oh no, she definitely doesn’t have a computer. She doesn’t even have an electric mixer. My sisters had a heck of a time making brownies there the first time.”
“Well, I guess this will have to do,” the lady said. “Good luck. First prize is a red convertible.”