Monday, 22 September 2008; 11:54 PM
It's like being trapped between heaven and earth.
No I'm not referring to green tea.
This sucks.
Insecure?
Maybe not.
She felt it too. Like the way I did.
Entangled?
Also not.
SHe lost the freedom too. Just like the way I did.
COnfused?
NO.
We're sure yet unsure. BOth she and I.
I felt this before.
Just like she did.
FUCK i sound like a lesbian.
I've been trying hard not to think about it.
Yet the more I want to forget it, the more I'd remember it.
It's just like then
Irritating.
Why do guys like to create trouble for us girls when it's before the exams?
WHy do they choose to ignore girls when it's exams?
Why do girls demand answers from guys when they get ignored?
Why?
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被困在天堂与地狱之间
不，我不是指‘天与地绿茶’
恶心！
没有安全感？
也许不是
我感受到了，她也感受到了
受到了约束？
也不是
我失去了自由，她也一样
失去方向?
不
我和她都是
我感受的
她也感受到了
王八蛋！怎么越说越像同性恋？！？！
我尝试不去想它
但越想要忘记
印象就越深刻
就像那时一样
烦
Tralala-ed ;
Sunday, 21 September 2008; 3:36 PM
The saddest thing isn't to cry.
But the saddest thing, instead, is the smile when you want to cry.
I'm not sad.
I'm merely not happy.
I'm not oppressed.
I'm merely not domineering.
I don't don't hate you
i merely am crazy over you.
<3 aggression!
最难过的，不是哭泣。
而是在想哭的时候，脸上却挂着笑容。
正在裕廊东的图书馆。
愣……
没事做啊！
讨厌数学！
Tralala-ed ;
Saturday, 20 September 2008; 11:50 PM
非常忙碌的星期
虽然5天内只上学3天
星期四：
早上达地铁时
达错了方向
笑死自己了！？！？！？！？！！
见了学校的辅导员
王八... 她这人，好可怕...
直到今天一想到她
鸡皮疙瘩全都会站起来...
受不了她。
她一直问：“你看起来很难过... 为什么？”
还来了一个‘经验论坛’
物理考试
别提了。完全是白痴！
考砸了...
星期五：
早上上课好痛苦。
幸亏最讨厌的老师都没来。
好不容易等到了CCA
结果教练又搞出新花样...
也没什么啦... 他出的花样唯一能预测的是：无法预测
好想回场上打球。
一个月没有CCA的日子。
怎么过？？
星期六：
Brother! 生日快乐。
度过了与快的下午...
回到家撒了一个谎
做作业
休息一下
继续做作业，直到起码4点（预期）
星期天（计划）：
愣在家里
慢慢（快快）的读书
离考试剩下12天
恭喜恭喜！
有个朋友说我的blogskin很丑
换了换了。
每那么粉了... ...
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As part of translation revision, I've decided to translate what I have blogged in Chinese into English.
Lucky bitches, I have spared you guys from the tiny tiny Chinese characters.
I've been really busy this week.
Even though I've only been to school 3 out of the 5 day week.
Thursday:
While on my way to school, I boarded the train in the wrong direction.
LMAO (okay, i'm being LAZY in translating...)
I've seen the school counsellor.
Damned. She's scary.
Whenever I think of her, I'm still very afraid of her.
Can't stand her...
She kept asking "Why do you look so sad?"
She even spoke about her experience.
... ... ... ... ...
Physics Test
Don't mention about it.
I screwed up. (if this weren't translated I'd have to use a bloody hell behind it. This shows that I'm more vulgar in English, because I'm not very creative in swearing in Chinese)
Friday:
Lessons were very tedious.
Luckily the teachers which I didn't quite like didn't come to school that day.
Finally endured till CCA
Coach had new ways of torturing us.
Our dear creative coach have many new ideas, but they're always predictable in one fashion: very unpredictable.
I want to go back on court to play volleyball!
How am I supposed to endure through one month of not having any training sessions?
Saturday:
Happy Birthday Brother!
I had an enjoyable afternoon
I told a lie when I got home.
Did some work, rested for a while
I will continue doing work until at least 4am.
Sunday (planned):
Stone at home
Study.
Congratulations, EOYS are approaching in 12days!
ps/: there's something to be emo about these few days, but I guess, I'll leave it till the next time, lest nobody comes to a blog as emo as mine. XD
Tralala-ed ;
Thursday, 18 September 2008; 12:55 AM
A-G-G-R-E-S-S-I-O-N
今天看了看靠十的时间表
下了一跳
猛然发现原来在过14天就考试了。
实在的，不想回学校上学。
今天，乌龟惹王八生气。
乌龟太没良心了。
怎么，都没发现... ...
逃避
面对
不想逃避
更加不想面对
个位观众！
郑重向大家宣布
我要结婚了！
开玩笑的...
镇正的是，我搬家了！
现在正住在表姐的家。
好远。
我看着你的时候
你会不会也注意着我？
幻想
Oh I suddenly remembered
Tomorrow is CID group presentation.
This is yay-ness?
Which a.hole reminded me of CID OP?
Nobody right?
Tmr have meh?
Tralala-ed ;
Monday, 15 September 2008; 8:56 PM
aggression.aggression.aggression.aggression.aggression.aggresion.aggression.aggression.aggression.aggression.aggression. says: beyond depression.
aggression's girlfriend is really sensitive.
She's asking about my feeling.
I can't her my true feelings.
Why does she want to know?
Does it help if she knows the truth?
I'm stating my feelings quite clearly here already.
I've had enough of aggression.
I want to be myself.
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Poopy you're real nice XD
I can't blog much about you
Lest my empress think that I'm really lesbian
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Tralala-ed ;
; 12:27 AM
忘记我爱你
忘记这样做会伤害自己
忘记快乐
忘记笑容
忘记带上表情
忘记忘记
09.06.08
03.27am
好久以前的东西了。
今天在博客中的草稿被我找出来。
好啦。就放着吧...
正式宣布：我讨厌专题作业。
专题作也是个王八蛋，臭鸡蛋，一个两毛半！
我居然忘了
我的不小心、
我的忘记
居然，伤了某人的幼小心灵。
一时的贪玩
没有顾及她的感受
王八？也许我是够王八的吧？
至于他
我觉得
浪费时间
终归中举，还不是保持现状？
连判断都成问题。
我讨厌你。
而且我更讨厌他。
看到你们俩在一起
我就觉得......肚子怎么这么饿？
一个麦片，一个虾
你们两个在一起
叫我怎能抗拒？
好像把你们俩
一同吃进肚子里去。
讨厌你们的原因？害我发福。
好了。全身在痒。
先去洗澡
等会儿的事
等会儿再说
洗澡去了！
Tralala-ed ;
Sunday, 7 September 2008; 8:35 PM
Hahha.
Sorry poopoo... I had lunch, then shopping with mum just now... So didn't play volley today.
Currently watching tv. Bloody bored. Feeling restless. And i meant it. Restless....
&i hate to see that fuckface of yours.
I wished
You were still mine.
Aggression day falls on a weekend this month. Holy!
Nonetheless, i cant treat you like i did before.
To think other fathers treated their daughters.
And to think about how you treated us.
I never understood why you are like that.
Countless times, i've tried comparing you with others.
Time after time i felt disappointments.
Are guys all like that?
Why?
I've tired searching for a reason.
Waste of my time.
Fuckface.
Tralala-ed ;
Friday, 5 September 2008; 10:16 PM
Too beautiful a boy
Too perfect a family
Too coincidental a similarity
Too overwhelming a feeling
I'm stuck between myself and my imagination.
I had enough of the most beautiful and the ugliest side of the world.
Displayed to me one by one at a time.
I yearn to speak
Nobody listens.
I yearn to explain
Nobody understands.
I yearn to care
Nobody bothers.
I yearn for you
Yet you are just a nobody.
I've questioned myself: Why study?
I've made up a mindmap of why I study already.
A flowchart, to be precise.
Had a conversation with Sharon today.
I said, I didn't feel like studying, because I no longer see a point in it.
PeiWoon: What's the purpose of going to school?
Sharon: To get certs lo. And ultimately, getting a good job.
PeiWoon: What's the purpose of getting a good job?
Sharon: To earn more money.
PeiWoon: What's the purpose of earning more money?
Sharon: To live a better life.
PeiWoon: What's the purpose of life?
Sharon: Ooo.. Mmm?
PeiWoon: when we all eventually die.
Call me emo or what.
I don't care.
I'm not even worrying about the meaning of life
why should I even care about what you call me.
I've been recently enlightened that even though life goes on,
it might come to an end anytime.
Just like what she said to me last night
She's been living for 52 years
And she might die tomorrow.
(I'm not cursing her. I'm quoting her)
Well, that's being unfair.
Why is she allowed to die tomorrow
and why am I not entitled to it?
Life is brittle.
it is so easily broken that a car crash can just take a life of anyone.
Including teens like us.
PeiWoon: What's bother living life the hard way when we're all gonna end up in a wooden box eventually?
Why are expectationa always unattainable?
Why is she always so greedy?
Why is she venting what she faces in work on me?
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
I had enough of what life beholds
Given a choice, I wouldn't mind a premature termination of life.
jus like this guy
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I can't hold out anymore.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up
Aggression
Why don't you understand.
Why the fuck did you screw up my life for?
You gave me motivation
You dashed my hopes.
YOu lifted me up high
ANd sent me flying downwards
Aggression
How I wished
You werenot there.
Aggression
I love you.
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Omg this girl siao liaos.
What the fuck is aggression man.
Crazy girl. She loves aggression.
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Poop's been really high recently over HER aggression.
Tralala-ed ;
Tuesday, 2 September 2008; 3:35 PM
Don't judge me because of my skin colour, my eye colour, my hair, my face, my looks, my grades, my nationality, my school, my class or myself.
Doesn't mean that I'm the same as them I have to be like them.
I may have the same skin colour, same eye colour, same hair colour, same nationality, same school or same class, but I don't have to be like them.
Why do you want to compare me with others?
I am not be as great as they are, but so?
Doesn't mean that I'm in river valley high school means I have to do well in it.
Doesn't mean that I'm Chinese I must be good in Chinese Language.
Doesn't mean that I have no talent I can't play volleyballl.
Doesn't mean that I'm a Singaporean I must be proficient in English.
Doesn't mean that I'm in 3B, I must be like Gao Yu Qi (?) [what was that for?]
I'm NEITHER of the above of what I've mentioned.
You don't like us.
Trust us.
We don't like you either.
I hate it when you label us "This kind of ....."
It's not like we don't label you "This kind of ...."
But I don't do it in front of you.
And I can proudly say, not behind of your back either.
I thought. we respected each other?
I thought. we were nice to each other?
I thought.
I could have been imaginating.
The other people from my kind may be labelling you in front of you
HELLO?
I thought. we could be friends?
I thought. we were nice to each other?
I thought.
I could have been imgainating.
I've managed to find reasons (or you say, excuses) to counter each other the sayings for those at the start of the post.
1. I'm from River Valley High, but barely passing because the standard is so high.
2. I've tried to do well in Chinese. But seriously, I've tried for 3 years, and I've failed for three years.
3. Who says I can't play volleyball. I don't need talent. I need a ball.
4. I'm born in a Chinese-speaking family. I managed to get a Band1 for my Primary School English because of tuition lessons which cost A BOMB.
5. Not everyone has an intellect of GYQ and putting in enough hard work as GYQ.
I can't stop you from judging us.
Neither can you stop us from judging you.
What's with all the judgement.
Does it make you feel like you've been a better person after judging someone.
Don't judge, by the colour of skin, colour of hair, colour of eyes, face, looks grades, nationality, school, or class.
Because while you may not like us,
we don't like you either.
Tralala-ed ;