Wednesday, 30 July 2008; 8:25 PM
Today was tiring.
Guess I really pissed teacher off.
Lessons were slack.
After lesson was slack too.
Went for CG after 100000000years of not being able to go.
I realised that with God's help, I'm stronger.
&& I believe that in time to come, with the help of my Daddy God, I'll be able to get out of this nonsense I'm currently in.Daddy God will help me.
Cos he's the only one willing and able to help me 24/7
I should really start studying!
Chemistry's a total mystery alright?
I'm so so so so not gonna do well.
Daddy God will help me.
Cos he's the only one willing and able to help me 24/7
I believe in this magical word.
It's called win.
But in order to achievement this magical word, I need to use another magical word.
It's called strive.
Daddy God will help me.
Cos he's the only one willing and able to help me 24/7
&& The more you despise me, the more I will wanna show that I'm better than you in all aspects.
It's really pitiful that I actually ended up in such a state.
Girl from previous post, if you happen to be reading my blog, I really wanna apologise.
I'm sorry.
Daddy God will help me.
Cos he's the only one willing and able to help me 24/7
I feel the guilt in the way I've been treating her.
As much as I want us to do well together,
I couldn't control my attitude towards her.
Daddy God will help me.
Cos he's the only one willing and able to help me 24/7
God will help
because i'm his child
Why that persistent phrase?
Ask me.
And I'll tell you.
Tralala-ed ;
Tuesday, 29 July 2008; 8:40 PM
i guess she's right.
I seem to be mixing private life with political life.
或许，是时候把它俩分开了。
损人不利己的事。
纹要向她(们)道歉。
应该是祝福，不是阻止。
缘份已尽
坚持下去也毫无意义。
我只是识相。但绝对不是退缩。
应该争取的，我会付出200%的努力跟你抢。而且我不会失败。
万一你输了，至少还有他。
而我就会失去我的一切。
所以。我会加倍努力。争取自己想要的。
我不会被同一个人打败两次。
同样的，意外不会发生两次。
I don't believe in accidents happenn twice in a row.
Nor do i believe go losing to one same person twice.
Or falling into the same trap twice.
It's the first time, and the last at the same time.
Tralala-ed ;
Monday, 28 July 2008; 9:49 PM
And this time, it's my fault because i blamed him without finding out the true situation.
When it happened, i questioned myself, or even tried asking him when i made eye contact with him, 'why?'
Have i actually been too mean to him?
Have i tried to understand him to start with?
Did i give him a chance?
No. I had been too preoccupied with my own business.
Hey, the guy i'm referring to, i'm sorry.
While you may have been struggling by yourself, I had only thought of things from my own point view.
I had been mean.
Maybe I should really heed Mr Chua's advice, to figst look within, then look forward.
Obs had been a torture, cos i went there with a wrong mindset to start with...
And seriously, waste my time la.... Now all my volleyball skill are GONE FOR GOOD. That sucks man. I cant even play like i used to one week ago.
It's time to start studying, start resting, start training, and start praying. I want to grab whatever that's left with whatever i'm left with.
I wanna make the best out me this.
Cos my life's too precious to be wasted on unnecessary people or things.
Guy i'm referring to, even though i may not know your problem, i'll be willing to listen if you're willing to say.. I hope you'd be able to tell. Not because i'm kaypo, but like i've helped you once, let me help you once let me help you once more. It's a tough problem, just like before.................. Do take care, i'll be praying for you.
Tralala-ed ;
Sunday, 20 July 2008; 10:40 PM
Finally finished packing for OBS.
My bag is DAMNed heavy.
Can't wait to see people with heavier bags than I do XD
Don't worry guys.... I'll be back !!
Tralala-ed ;
Tuesday, 15 July 2008; 10:09 PM
原来
一直以来
你仍然是我的推动力
今天撇了好多球
都不到位
但后来，
有一股力量，
让我杀了那一粒好球
明天的physics assignment 我怎么感觉自己不想做了？
math test 和 geography test 也准备完蛋了。
算了，睡觉吧...
明天再做吧！
明天，要上学
因为明天可以打球...
难道，这就是我唯一的人生目标吗？
难道，这就是我唯一上学的目的吗？
“不胜枚举”的功课（呵呵）
“名落孙山”的测验（呵呵）
“蒸蒸日下”的精神（呵呵）
My chinese sucks man....
Tralala-ed ;
Friday, 11 July 2008; 11:05 PM
I'm sorry Sim Hui Shan.This post is gonna be in Chinese again.
Anyway, I sympathize with you........ LOL!
&& Bubu. Sorry ar. I knew it.! You would come to read my blog. But I apologise for the CHEENA post. It's not my fault, I declare again.
It's so because I'm missing someone.
一连串坏的事件都发生在我的身上。先是教练说我没天分
然后又跟老师起冲突
接着又生病
今天还破天荒-进校长室
接下来的考试，叹~... 还是算了吧....
绝望了...
今天，又想到他了。
够了！闹够了！
7月14日我要庆祝分手3个月
有没有人要替我庆祝？
那天，正好，我和校长有约
由他来陪我好了...
事隔几乎3个月
我又到了裕廊方（Jurong Point)
感觉 - 怪怪的。
无论去到哪一个角落
都闻到了一股味道
听起来有点变态，但我一直回忆着你。
几乎整个裕廊方都被我们逛扁了
最难过的是从裕廊方到回家的路上。
很难过。
记得在文礼地铁站你怎么说服我搭下一趟地铁
从文礼到金文泰的地铁车程似乎比平时更久...
但你在金文泰等我是等得更久。
从金文泰作回家的距离似乎比平时更长，更累人...
但你再送我回家后自己回家的距离更长
你借我的书
不见了三个月
今天又出现了
本来不想告诉你
想让那本书永远报销
但不属于我的东西，我留，也留不住...
这，包过你的心。
至今，我只有资格，自己留住回忆
看着你说的：“this is the first time. I wish it could last forever. I love you”
除了心痛，
什么都不能做。
我连哭泣的资格也没有了...
也只能在心里取笑你的英文程度
试着安慰自己。
事到如今，也只能独自暗恋。
~
至于老师那方面
我也不管了。
我再怎么努力，最后的成果仍然与付出的成反比
我越想和平，他们就越要添麻烦。
真是没事干。
一个是这样
两个是这样
三个也是这样
努力，仍然白费
无论学业，感情，球技等等，全都是如此..........
Tralala-ed ;
Thursday, 10 July 2008; 8:56 PM
Sick.Tired.
Sleepy.
Thank God for everything!
at least things didn't turn for the worse.
I'm feeling pukish these days.Dizzy.
Feverish.
Runny Nose.
Coughing.
Today wasn't too bad.
I heard that school was quite slackish.
At least I can rest at home in peace.
What I'm most glad is that physics assignment isn't due tmr.
I really don't know how to do...
I hope to recover by tomorrow.
There's training, you see.
I love volleyball =X
Fenfen rox~!
Tralala-ed ;
Wednesday, 9 July 2008; 3:01 PM
Whatever
–pronoun
1. anything that (usually used in relative clauses): Whatever you say is all right with me.
2. (used relatively to indicate a quantity of a specified or implied antecedent): Take whatever you like of these.
3. no matter what: Do it, whatever happens.
4. any or any one of a number of things whether specifically known or not: papers, magazines, or whatever.
5. what (used interrogatively): Whatever do you mean?
–adjective
6. in any amount; to any extent: whatever merit the work has.
7. no matter what: whatever rebuffs he might receive.
8. being what or who it may be: Whatever the reason, he refuses to go.
9. of any kind (used as an intensifier following the noun or pronoun it modifies): any person whatever.
–interjection
10. (used to indicate indifference to a state of affairs, situation, previous statement, etc.)
It's ironical that I actually made such a simple response after hearing what whatshername has done to me today.
I've learnt to let go of how these whatshername(s) or whatshisname(s) has decided to say about me or do to me.
That now I don't bother to curse and swear (I dun curse and swear, but now I don't even bother to feel angry).
When I first heard of what whatshername has done to me in class today, I was kind of furious.
But then I thought, was there a need?
Absolutely no need, so I shouldn't bother.
The next thing I thought of what to blog about it.
Which is what I am doing now.
But then I changed my format.
I find it weird.
What whatshername has done is actually meant to make me angry.
But I wasn't.
And my response was so NOT English.
Read all the definations of WHATEVER.
I don't find any one of those suitable for a response like that.
I seriously need english enrichment lessons.
&& I should quit slanging as well.
I'm so proud of myself because I didn't say bad things about anyone today. =D GD JOB !
But I just managed to find myself in such a great state of shock that she was actually such a person.
Forget it. I asked for it.
It's really weird that I can apologise and reflect on my mistake of small things
and yet neglect the other bigger ones.
Luke 6:41-42
41“Why do you see the speck in your brother's eye but fail to notice the beam in your own eye?42Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when the beam is in your own eye?You hypocrite! First remove the beam from your own eye, and then you will see clearly enough to remove the speck from your brother's eye.”
Tralala-ed ;
Saturday, 5 July 2008; 8:31 AM
昨天并不是一个很好的日子。
在我开始之前，我要先申明: Yiming! I'm not emo zzz.
昨天，教练给我一个很好的提醒。
我知道我是没天分。
也不用讲得这么明。
呵呵... 其实，我也很怪...
明明老早就认定自己这一点，
却被教练这么一提醒，
我似乎惊醒了。
奇怪。
换句话说，其实我还挺好的嘛...
起码我的Percentage Yield照样是100%
0% 天分 + 100%努力
比爱迪生强leh...
至于那些有天分、有球感的人，
就只能以羡慕的眼光视她们。
人家可能有同样的Percetange Yield
但比重就没有那么imbar了。
最霜的就是那种
50%天分 + 50%努力 的一群
看了，只能嫉妒
教练，（he doesn't read this. comfirm gurantee plus chop）
没天分就没天分啦！
又怎样？
别人可以从50%的努力提高到80%的努力
我也可以从100%再把自己推到150%
Peiwoon is going to prove you wrong!
Tralala-ed ;
Tuesday, 1 July 2008; 2:24 AM
Losing sleep sucks.Wasting time sucks more.
I'm not gonna colour my post today.
Cos someone who's lost sleep is supposed to be moody.
U shall bear with me.
Ironically, I went to bed at 12.10am (my mum put me a curfew of 12am sharp, but I exceeded by 1ominutes)
Then, was with uncompleted homework.
At 12.52am, I still couldn't sleep...
Then I woke up.
SUper good gal me decided to do my GPP
When I haven't even done my tomorrow-due assignments.
ZZZ
OH well...
I shall go try sleep now.
Gd night =X
It sucks to not be able to sleep even when you know you're damned tired.
Tralala-ed ;