duntellwen/bs

Saturday, 28 June 2008; 11:50 PM

The last ten minutes of being your girlfriend

Last night, you mentioned that you couldn't commit much to me anymore.
Then, I wasn't quite affected.
Now I realised.
This is what I'm thinking: 打回原形

It doens't even matter how hard you try.

No matter how much you try to say

"Wen, I love you alot, don't leave me"

It's still doesn't change the situation.

You are still you.

You were still you.

It doesn't matter how much you cry.

It was only until the loss of doudou that I realised
I still couldn't let go.
I feel like a loser.
Let's accept reality.
You're not ready for any relationships.
Perhaps maybe I'm not either.

It's ending up again, with another sigh.

What would you do if tonight was the last time minutes of being my boyfriend.

What would you say to me?

What would you do?

What would you let go, and what would you choose to hold onto?

&& Finally, It's time to say good bye.

Let's go.
We're not meant to be.

We're still the jie-di relation, alright?

12.00am

29June2008

I'm glad to have seen the change within the 13 days

but I'm not destinated to experience your life with you for the next 130 days.

Tralala-ed ;

; 9:59 AM

Who Moved My DouDou?

The Mystery of the Missing DouDou

There, here's the introduction. This is DouDou, or 斗斗。
Today, it's MISSING!
Boo~
I'm sad.

I went out last night to orchard with DouDou.
And he went missing!
BooHoo...
I'm gonna find him later.

Help keep a lookout of him for me.
Here are his charateristics:
1. He's red
2. He has a handphone chain (labelled 老公仔） hung into his tag
3. He has a broken cream colour string above his head.
4. He is supposed to be an apple.

WHO KIDNAPPED MY DOUDOU?
WHO STOLE MY DOUDOU?
WHO MOVED MY DOUDOU?
please return him to me.
I'm willing to pay a ransom of $40. (TWO WEEKS OF POCKET MONEY)
Doudou is really important to me.
Return him back to me please.

I love doudou!

Tralala-ed ;

Saturday, 21 June 2008; 8:18 PM

if only i could turn back time.

Amongst the three of us, only one would be hurt, instead of two.
Bloody shithead!
Following after you was a bad choice.
Falling in love with you was worse.
When I continued that feeling, it was the worst choice I've ever made in my life.

I'm sorry Harnee.
I'm really sorry for hurting you in the first place.
Now that I'm in the second place, and given a second chance, I wanna make full use of this second chance.

Perhaps mum was right.
I don't really know how to be a lady.
I don't know how to tolerate, I don't know how to step back.

This time.
It's a second chance.
I will make sure that I use it well.

Harnee.
I've learnt to let go.
I hope you'd see this post soon.
Because I've let go the barrier in my heart.

It had been a 14month affair.
If I could, I want it to last 140 months.
1400 months
14000 months.

It was a decision made wrongly.
I hope this time, I get to correct it.

I love u, Harnee.
1606080206

Tralala-ed ;

Saturday, 14 June 2008; 1:40 AM

I tried to convince myself that we weren't meant to be.

But reality pulled me to a conclusion that we were.

Now you tell me that we weren't.

Who should I believe?

I'm sorry but I ~~still love you.~~

I wouldn't mind saying it out here, cos I know you wouldn't for any reasons get your mouse clicking here.

Oh well...

I feel like drinking...

Hahha realized that each time I blogged, I would either be drinking already, or want to drink.

Lol random.

I don't understand why.

I never did.

I won't want to try to understand anymore.

Today I made a promise to myself.

It's written down at the corner of my blog. Below songs section.

You would understand it, cos it's just a normal promise that people make.

Normal format, how I used to promise myself.

If you're interested in knowing what the promise was, I would tell you if I'm in a good mood.

Ask me then.

Or else, it remains a secret between CPW and CPW.

I'm not gonna let myself continue doing the wrong things.

This is wrong. I cannot let this go on.

Change my thoughts, attitude,actions.

I had enough of this hectic life of mine.

Cheating and being cheated upon.

Life's a total bitch.

Don't worry, I won't go commit suicide or anything near.

I jus make sure that whoever makes my life difficult or makes me feel worthless will suffer.

This is the concept of "If I suffer, you must suffer with me"

It doesn't make me a better person, but it makes me feel better about myself.

One concluding statement, which I haven't used for ages.

FUCK

&& I'm not over you.

Tralala-ed ;

Sunday, 8 June 2008; 1:33 AM

很累，很累，很累，很累，很累..........
可就是睡不着。

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
我现在连看你的资格都没有，谈何笑容？
放过我吧。不要每天晚上在睡觉前最后一个出现在脑海里。也不要一早就来到我的脑子里，8am 就来叫醒我。
其实，你已经在很久以前就放手了。
甚至，比我更早。
而我却仍然抓得很紧，不肯松手。

不要再出现在我的世界

因为如果你的身影再次出现在我的眼前

我不能保证，我会让你离开。

如果能重新开始，我绝对不会让自己犯下同样的错误。

我不会拱手让你离开

醉了

却从来没那么清醒过

原来唯一对自己诚实的一次

就是这一次

有的回头

我绝对绝对

不会让你‘自私’这一次

我受够了你那that idiot says I love you那一类的话。

你说什么，我就信什么

就算把我扁成傻瓜

我还是会相信你

这次，我真的要宣布一件非常重要的事

葛祥祎，我爱你

Tralala-ed ;

Saturday, 7 June 2008; 1:36 AM

突然很想时间停留。
很像永远自己一个人
凌晨的1.37am
iTunes里刚好是在播放《凌晨的天空》

好像就这样一直到永远
~~一种，似乎全世界为我停顿的感觉。~~
看，这几首歌都是连续播放的。
这种感觉好好，似乎全世界是为我而转的。

就算是自欺欺人，也无所谓了
骗自己，自己就会好过一些，不好吗？
辨别人，别人看了~~不会心痛~~, 这样，应该没错吧？

这叫‘善意的谎言’
（从你那学来的）

今天跟君君姐姐和青菜妹妹去做CID
（sorry JJJJ i cant find your correct 君君）
过后去打羽毛球
我是新加坡羽毛球国家代表！
新加坡干脆就不要参加好了
我今天把很多秘密告诉了君君姐姐和青菜妹妹
其中一个是非常重要的那是隐藏了三个星期的秘密
呵呵呵呵呵呵......

YY bets with me that if I don't have any further relationship with imaginary Nicky, she's gonna treat me to a drink.
YY I want to drink oreo crush from sweettalk. Small pearls + extra pearls. $2.10 leh~
Cheat your money~ Muhahahahhaa.
Cheat my feeelings~

BTW, I mentioned in the previous post when I was scolding mum, that I needed an imaginary friend.
I found one.
His name is Nicholas.
Nicknamed "Imaginary Nicky"
HAHHA.
Now Nicky, you've made it up to my blog, and you're truely imaginary now. LOLOLOLOL.

Last night, I was speaking over the phone with Imaginary Nicky till 3am or so.
Believe it or not.
This whole day, I spend around 40 sms texting Imaginary Nicky.
Believe it or not.
I am dating Imaginary Nicky.
Believe it or not.

LOLOLOLOLOL.

Tralala-ed ;

Tuesday, 3 June 2008; 11:39 PM

Real stupid video. You guys should watch it to have a good laugh.

Tmr there's training.
Oh, how I wished I could ~~escape reality~~

Hmm.

I'm gonna bitch about mama today.

She's really getting ~~crazy~~ over the stress from work.

Today, I went swimming (again, today and yesterday)

Yesterday I told her I went alone.

Today I told her I went alone too.

She asked if I was going tomorrow.

I thought I might, so I just told her I would be.

Then she asked who I have been going with.

I REALLY WENT ALONE.

I lie, my fault.

I tell the truth, still my fault.

Why does she insist that I'm with someone when I'm not?

Maybe I should get an imaginary friend to go with me tomorrow.

Guys, help me think of a nice guy name for my imaginary friend.

My mum would never believe it if I told her I went with a girl~.
SIGH

Just added my all-time favourite song.

Hope you guys like it.

What I deem as nice, you guys should listen to it too.

Tank - 晴天雨
你说你是雨天
而我是太阳耀眼
说我不适合出现在
你住的灰色世界
想晒干你的泪
却被你简单拒绝
在我手心里的温度
好想要分给你一点
我忽然期待天空能下一场雨
让我在冰冷的夜慢慢了解你
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起
今天明天我都不想远离
我那么期待晴天下的雨
你说你不怕黑
一个人也无所谓
独自撑伞走过伤悲
不再和爱有关联
我想要带你飞
飞向彩虹的另一边
我们搬进幸福的里面
一直到永远的永远
我忽然期待天空能下一场雨
让我在冰冷的夜慢慢了解你
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋
我偏偏只想和你在一起（和你在一起）
今天明天我都不想远离
我那么期待晴天下的雨

晴天雨天谁说只能对立
我偏偏只想和你在一起（和你在一起）
美丽美丽浪漫的晴天雨
让我们的天空不再孤寂
晴天雨天谁说不能想恋

(Woo... Woo... 谁说不能想恋)

我偏偏只想和你在一起 (我偏偏只想和你在一起)
今天(今天) 明天(明天) 我都不想远离（不想远离）
我那么期待晴天下的雨（下了晴天雨）
让我们的天空不再哭泣

Tralala-ed ;

Sunday, 1 June 2008; 11:33 AM

Today I suddenly felt like blogging.
I wanted to write in Chinese, but i decided not to.
So here I am, with the most wonderfulous post.

Yes, I ~~hate~~ life.
Random statement, but absolutely true.

These days, mum loves to scold me alot.
This morning, the part-time maid, which i had an arguement with before, came to clean up our house.
She rang the doorbell, my mum wasn't home.
I didn't quite feel like opening the door, ~~but I eventually did.~~

So I packed my superMESSYroom while waiting for my mum to come home.
When she got home, she told me to leave the house and go out study.
WTF HAVE I DONE!
She told me NOT to show bad face to the part-time maid.
Alright, dear mum, I WAS NOT SHOWING BAD FACE.
I MERELY WASN'T WILLING TO SMILE.

GREAT~! dammit.

Mum's been asking me this question:
Mum: Aircon好像不冷hor?
ME: Ya Lo.
Mum: 为什么啊？什么原因啊？

What am I supposed to answer!!?!?!!

I can't wait to leave the house now...
我错了...应该一早就离开家。
妈的(literally)
我妈的！

Tralala-ed ;

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