Wednesday, 31 October 2007; 1:48 AM
What beats finding your primary one long-lost classmate?
when you find out you still remember him.
So what beats remembering that friend of yours?
When he decides to tell you his 'hidden for 7 years secret'.
So what beats that secret?
Regret.
Vincent(not the one in 2I) and M were the monitors of class 1-8 seven years ago.
W was the first girl that M spoke to when they entered class 1-8. M found W charismatic, W found M really easy to talk to. COnversation became a simple thing to do each they as the two met and grew up in the class of 1-8.
W did think about M. She found M cute, easy to talk to, and most of all, nice to her. Even as a young child, she knew that she felt something different towards this guy, but she didn't quite understand what was going on. She even went to the extend of writing M's name in her school diary(or some weird weird exericse books), then erasing them.
Yeah, and M was really nice towards her, too...
When it came to pri2, the class had to seperate. W went to 2-6, M went to 2-9. They didn't quite meet, and W also gradually forgotten about this nice guy.
Soon, due to unexpected reasons, W had to change school. But it was so sudden that she did not have time to inform anyone. No one at all, not even M. Then, sliently, she left her class of 1-8.
By Pri2 end of year, M recieved his year book. He tried locating everyone in 1-8 in the pictures of their pri2 classes. THis was because P1 did not have photoshoot that year and during the P2 year, they had a photoshoot and yearbook. M searched for W, but to no avail.
Both people moved on to secondary schools, but were not posted to the same secondary school either.
Then suddenly one day, W signed into her msn. She saw M.
She didn't remember him, no pictures.
After much talking, she finally recalled something, but didn't recall it all.
That same night, M told W the truth. M liked W since P1, and was rather nice to her. He went to seach for her specially and finally found her msn (it was a super long list, but he found her) But W didn't dare to say what she really intended to. She was committed to E(no M, its not Edmund. Its someone else.) already.
W told E about M because she didn't want to hide anything from E. E understood, M understood too, but W couldn't. She didn't understand.
It's a concept of What goes around comes back around.
W didn't understand.
Never will.
YXXXXMXY
Tuesday, 30 October 2007; 12:50 AM
& today is gonna be a good day because I started my 12.05am will a good start, thinking that "there are still many things worth for me to smile about."
Therefore, today's gonna be nice.
Saturday, 27 October 2007; 8:17 PM
Test 1
The analysis:
When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.
You give 90% to your relationship and expect to receive 10% in return.
If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself.
You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible.
You accept your loved one the way they are. You don't expect him or her to change for you.
When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.
Test 2
The analysis:
you are a realistic person, you are likely to be practical minded
You are direct and know how to stay on course. You are confused when others complicate things that seem so clear to you.
You are secure, stubborn, and stick to your ideals.
The size of the ears indicates how good a listener you are. You got 2 out of 5.
The length of the tail indicates the quality of your sex life. You got 1 out of 5.
You are analytical, cautious, and distrustful.
Test 3
The analysis:
You have 4 true friends.
You will have 2 true loves before getting married.
It is your work ethic that you stop and rest for as long as you want.
Here is the description of your ideal mate: "shuai, MONKEY FACED, big eyes, cute in simple terms"
SEAN is the person you will never get over for the rest of your life.
You give 80% in a relationship.
Test 4
The analysis:
You are active, a challenger, optimistic, hard-working. You are always working towards a set goal.
Test 5
Here is the analysis:
You are an outgoing and cheerful person. Although you get frustrated sometimes, you get through hard times easily and are joyful again.
Your friendly personality makes you attractive in the eyes of the opposite sex, but this makes your spouse feel insecure. Your lack of emotion is a disadvantage, but your candor has made you popular.
Friends of your gender find it hard to understand you because of your innocent thinking. But this is your advantage as it attracts members of the opposite sex who have the same personality as you.
Test 6
Here is the analysis:
You have a complicated personality.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: Peak.
You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is small.
Glass means fragile personality.
You are also unpredictable, wild and exciting.
You are an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.
Test 7
Here is how you prioritize certain aspects of your life.
More important matters come first on the list below:
Passion
Friends and relationships
Death
Marriage
Career
Test 8
Here is the analysis:
Your own personality is Cute.
Your partner's personality is Slow.
Your enemy's personality is Dirty.
What you think about sex is Appealing.
What you think about your own life is Warm.
Test 9
Here is how you prioritize certain aspects of your life.
More important matters come first on the list below:
Money
Love
Pride
Family
Career
Test 10
Here is the analysis:
The one who will never forget you is Edmund.
The one who you can consider as your real friend is Joanne.
The one you really love is Elijah.
This may be your soulmate: Jun Jie.
The one you will remember for the rest of your life is Aishah.
Test 11
You are basically a person who enjoys reminiscing.
You are a very emotional person indeed, easily influenced by people and your surroundings. For example, if society is sad about the death of famous people, you will share these sentiments, or when watching a sad movie, you will be so engrossed that you will end up being sadder than the main actors in the movie.
YOUR LOVE
Are you a very confused person?
Sometimes you like to be left alone.
Sometimes you want to be loved.
Sometimes you need him or her.
Sometimes you don't.
Does it sound familiar?
Test 12
Here is the analysis:
A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is obedient and warm.
In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being creative, so you're not bored.
The impression you'd like to give to your lover is loyal and faithful.
One reason that would make you break up with your partner is insecurity.
The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner. A long-lasting relationship that you can grow with is important.
Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn't do anything wrong after marriage.
About marriage, you are afraid of marriage. You think it would take away your freedom.
About love, at this moment, you think of love as a commitment for both parties.
Test 13
Here is the analysis:
You want your partner to be a little bit more relaxed, calm and composed.
Test 14
Here is the analysis:
You are quite methodical and punctilious. You have few problems adapting to the rules of society.
When you are at the zoo, you are surrounded by caged creatures that you can't talk with, and which can't communicate with you. This fact subconsciously governs the way you act. It is very similar to how you act in human society as well. In other words, your actions reveal the hidden side of your personality.
Test 15
Here is the analysis:
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.
Test 16
The analysis:
Your emotional controlled rate: 40%
You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.
Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.
Test 17
The analysis:
You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.
Test 18
The analysis:
You think good luck doesn't exist. Reality is built on practicalities. It's probably safe to say that you do not buy lottery tickets.
Test 19
The analysis:
About money, you are probably a bit stingy.
Test 20
The analysis:
You are happiest when you're with someone you like.
Test 21
The analysis:
The decisions you have made indicates your criteria in choosing your soulmate.
More important matters come first on the list below:
Love
Appearance
Education
Money
Test 22
The analysis:
Your smart spending score: 87%
To others, you may appear to be very stingy, but you have the ability to earn money and you won't spend it caressly. You have full control over your money matters.
Test 23
The analysis:
It would be very difficult for you to fall in love with someone. But when you love, honesty is your first priority. You are an emotional person.
Test 24
The analysis:
You think he or she is a very smart one. You love his/her brain.
Test 25
The analysis:
Quite Good
You can easily attract the opposite sex but you don't easily fall into a love trap. Your sense of humor makes people want to be around you. Being with you is so much fun!
Test 26
The analysis:
You are always willful and most of the time you are a stubborn person. However, you love to work with others and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.
Test 27
It's about your spending habit:
You mostly want to spend more than you earn. Is shopping your hobby?
Test 28
The first qualification that you want from your partner is:
Money: your partner has to be well-to-do.
Test 29
The analysis:
It takes you a long time to develop your relationship and fall in love with someone. Once you love, you will love with all your heart, sincerely and forever.
Test 30
The analysis:
A dependent man who behaves like a "mother's child" will find you attractive.
Ohh I cant just seem to get bored of quizzes. Lol
; 7:44 PM
I found myself a job, which is gonna be hard work.
Best part is, i implicated my cousin.
How great!
Fact: it's my aunt's company.
Fact: i doubt i'll have the time because i cant seem to plan out my scheduel properly means i'm damned busy this holidays.
Fact: i dunno how to reject my aunt.
Fact: i got my cousin into shit because she has a own plans too.
Fact: i'm SO dead.
; 2:05 PM
I <3 u
Thursday, 25 October 2007; 11:12 PM
EMO-ness, so please withstand if you're an iilegal-ian.
23 December 2005, 34 classmate first met.
Differently common.
Different colours of uniform, same feelings -- nervous about meeting new classmates.
3 Jan 2006, 34 of them met again.
Same simple mindedness, same nervousness, same fear, same awkwardness.
they were still the bunch of kids.
Soon, the ice-broke. Cliques formed, friendship that couldn't be broken built.
Along with this, clique fights, friend quarrels, laughers, pain, joy, endurance, support also rose up.
But there seemed to be someone left out of these events, the loner.
She seems to be the odd one out.
A puzzle that never could fit.
Soon, it was 26October2007, that's it. it's already the end.
No more trying to fit in.
No more clique fights, friend quarrels, laughers, pain, joy, endurance, support or others.
All these, gone in the cruel treatment of seperation
Through the time, kids grew up to be mature young adults. They matured through experience, they grew through sufferring.
All these changed.
All of us changed.
I'm really glad that the puzzle never fitted.
Because, it's easier to break apart.
I don't understand.
I'm so wrong.
I wasted 2 years of my life not trying to fit.
But great, a puzzle piece without a perfect fit would be able to detech more easily.
I'll
None of this count anymore.
i'm not sad
Wednesday, 24 October 2007; 9:55 PM
为了让伤口麻木，只得把自己‘灌醉’。
不需要太明显，就只需要狠狠地刮一巴掌。
这是我犯的一个大错。
毕生难忘的一个决定。
想回头，来不及了。
醉了。
Saturday, 20 October 2007; 9:36 PM
he cant.
that's where the problem lies.
if only i could understand what he needed.
and he could understand what i wanted.
forget it. its already impossible.
I don't need a boy.
I need a man.
; 1:58 PM
原本只想不留任何回忆。
如今意思却变了。
不，我不难过，
我不会想念 2I.
我不会。
糟了！ 还有剪报！
Friday, 19 October 2007; 6:37 PM
Then, its XY.
Finally, YX came up.
I'm in NO way related to YX except for schoolmates.
I'll did not freakking hell hold XY's hand.
i only love xx.
nehhs.. Actually not. I love VOLLEYBALL most.
Training for peiwoon tomorrow...
Her knees are scratched.
Her knees are hurting.
Her ankles are getting wobbly one of them are gonna get blistered soon.
Her little toes' blisters are gonna get burst soon.
But she's gonna endure.
Because her teammates are still out there fighting, so she shall not give up.
Volleyball requires 6 players.
We need 6 fighters, the rest are reluctant.
If she doesn't fight, and no one else does, there's no point in playing that game.
So she's gonna fight..
Till everyone else stops fighting.
She's gonna be at her best.
She's gonna play the season well.
she's not gonna get injured.
I'll keep holding on..
Jiayou RVvolleyball
Our season is coming.
Keep fighting.
woh i dehsiw ereht erew erom srehtgif ni eht maet.
it's probably what it takes to keep each other fighting.
Forget it.
Hey Step, JY. You're the best setter on EARTH muhahah!!
I will spike properly. I'll try my best.
Seow Rong and Bao Hui, blocking is SUPER tedious. JYJY endure!
Main spikers, JYJY! Spike properly.
B GIRLS
ACEACEACEACEACEACE
Wednesday, 17 October 2007; 8:50 PM
DAMN. I feel like fainting. ZZZZ guess I haven't have much of quality sleep recently.
And I feel damn feverish.
What's worse?
There's swimming and training for me tomorrow.
I feel like puking.
OMG sth's wrong wif me. How?
Anyway, goal of Decmeber Holidays:
1. Not to fall sick or get injured.
2. Not to miss trainings.
3. Not to rememeber anything. Forget all memorise. Leave nothing behind.
Okay, my results for EOY are out.
GPA : 3
Number of A1: 1
Number of A2: 0
Number of B3: 3
Number of B4: 2
Okays.. That's enought about results.
my languages suck man..
i feel so weak now lorhs. Weak from hip down.
Knees totally sore from yesterday's training.
today played bball wif junjun jiejie. Muhaha.
She's damn cute lurhs.. Muhahaha..
Ya.
I jus dun quite feel very good eh?
I'm super super tired.
&& after something said by someone today, I feel that I'm less worthy of what I actually have now.
And I suddenly realise the urge to treasure what I have now.
I'll start packing tomorrow's bag and plan out what to do to make it up for the wrongs I did.
I'm not emo. I'm not sad. I'm just trying hard to fake a smile.
This, may be the only form of reminder I can give to myself.
Ehh I got an idea.
I'll make the nicest food on Earth.
I'm feeling this soreness in my knee currently.
OMG its starting to hurt.
OMG. MY KNEE HURTS. GTG really very painnnnn!!!!!!cya
Tuesday, 16 October 2007; 9:03 PM
no. I'm not affected by what the majority say.
I'm just most affected by what you view of me.
we were never meant to be, were we?
we could never go back to the past, could we?
you would never love me again, would you
I'm not emo, I'm not sad. I'm just trying hard to fake a smile...
Please believe me
Guess I'm still best at lying.
Lying to the masses and crowds.
Deluding the pathetic soul all by herself.
Yes. and say that you trust what she can say.
Even though you know she's lying.
I found my new identity: professional liar.
Nobody knows which sentences is true. \\ or false.
Cause I'm capable to lying through everything.
每个举动；每说一句话
真真假假、假假真真
我都懒得去拆窜自己了。
毕竟，假的未必是坏的..
真的，不曾完美...
And WHICH bastard started talking about sister and I?
Fuck off man.
CCB la.
Thus, as stated above, courtship is a very personal thing because it involves getting to know about the other party's family. Which you won't know unless you are the person herself.
Anyway, jus fuck off later. I've got aboslutely nothing to do with sister, so get off my back. Cheebai.
Enough, gtg! Cyas!
Friday, 12 October 2007; 9:21 AM
(all these come in ranking of what comes to my mind first. SO its pretty obvious what affected me most, what least.)
I'd like to thank a girl for showing a deep affection toward my boyfriend.
I'd like to thank my boyfriend for putting me down when I'm already very down.
I'd like to thank my mother for being so understanding.
I'd like to thank my dad for leaving us with nothing and nothing more. All we're left with is,
I'd like to thank the school for setting such high standards and causing me to fall short of expectations each time.
I'd like to thank my body. For not supporting the things I want to do. Whatever I try to do, my physique or metal would refuse to support it.
Most of all, I'd like to re-emphasize my first point.
I'd like to thank a girl for showing her deep affection towards my boyfriend.
Thursday, 11 October 2007; 11:23 PM
醒不如醉
有时，只有在醉的时候才最清醒。
Wednesday, 10 October 2007; 9:48 PM
全都来得太突然了...
这似乎让我有些措手不及。
说实在的，真的，我受不了了！
这快使我窒息了。
每天担心害怕。
闭上眼睛就会想起可怕的一面。
我很怕。
我怕死了。
但我不怕死。
我只是怕死那件事罢了。
每天以泪洗面。
每天都要想新的借口，来者盖上一个借口。
不，我不玩了...
若眼泪真的能摆脱所有痛苦，我哭瞎了也没关系。
有眼睛，就等于没眼睛。
根本上，那眼睛已经费了。
一切美好的事物都不再出现。而我天天看到的就是这一片黑暗。
或许是因为有太多时间，没机会分心。
心灵上的空虚，导致痛。
一种，没原因的痛。
或者说，原因是没有
因为美是让我痛，所以我痛。
不合常理，但事实就是这样。
流血也已经没用了。
这份麻木，似乎已经着射入我的人生当中。
似乎，在怎么流血，也已经不能提醒自己是谁了。
我，是什么？
我，是谁？
害怕。
很害怕。
非常害怕。
害怕生，因为有生必有死。
害怕赢，因为有赢必有输。
害怕好，因为有好必有坏。
害怕聚，因为有聚必有散。
害怕笑，因为有笑必有哭。
害怕爱，因为有爱必有痛。
害怕孤军作战。
斗志全无。
知觉 = 0
痛。
好痛。
痛死我了！
Tuesday, 9 October 2007; 1:09 PM
When the fighting spirit has given up on hope.
When u drive someone to a wall.
Nothing else matters no more.
When one dies, nothing else matters.
However, I won't be dying anytime soon, so currently, this is still very important.
NOW, i should be worrying about the deepshit I am in now.
Guess what!
I'm risking a B4 or a B3 for Geography.
I'm only able to get a maximum of A2 for math.
My mum's been KEE-ing siao at me.
ZZZ. Glad she's working now.
Okay I'm very very very tired now.
Currently in science lesson watch movie.
Not gonna waste time. I shall sleep now.
Night people!
Friday, 5 October 2007; 11:39 PM
On msn, I just did a search on the word 'biantai'. 6 contacts came up.
Yeah. 6 of them.
I find this touching.
Sorry if you feel that I invaded your privacy. I'll remove this immediately if you're unhappy.
If you've seen the picture, I said I was emo-ing.
Ya. I am. Because I cant stop crying.
I hate it when she uses death to threaten me.
When I came back from school, she told me about her dream last night.
She dreamt that she would be cremated within 4 hours.
Then she told me she asked me "Who would you wanna stay with after this four hours? Your second aunt or your third aunt?"
She told me I replied her "Third". Then she woke up.
She scolded me about be test results. BUT WHAT ELSE CAN I DO?
She doesn't LISTEN TO THE FULL SIDE OF THE STORY.
She asked me what would I do if she died.
Then, I'll die along with her.
Becase the reason that I'm surviving is her, so if she died, then I could die along to.
Then, all pain would end
Exam period, im stressed.
After exam, im even more stressed.
What else can I do?
I've done my best, but she doesnt seem to agree that that's my best.
Fact is: My math isn't good and she isn't willing to come to terms with it.
I suck.
& most of all, I should die.
Maybe after the four hours, I'll enjoy eternal life of happiness.
Meanwhile, before this four hours ends, can I find happiness?
And nobody could tell that I am/I was/I will be in pain. And this pain can never be released.
Can I still be happy?
Yes, provided I'm not CPW.
; 9:02 PM
JEREMY, SEOW RONG, PEIWOON, GUY ON BUS 282
Okay, here goes. No special preferences, cos they're too difficult to be ranked according to preferences.
JEREMY's my friend. My VERY VERY VERY good friend. A true brother. (Hey I used brother not "chio bu" okay?)Anyway, I don't quite care about what happened previously, cause they don't bother me AT all. Stay happy brother and take care for exams! Jiayous "target of stalk". And I don't have major secrets that you dunno. Unless its something that I die die cannot say.
Till someone raids my coffin and tries to do a brain scan on my memory even after I die. Or else, it's sealed
SEOW RONG, I'm so sorry. I made shit out of training today. Sorry for making you redo so many times. I will try harder and make the best of my teammate-ship with you larhs. Sorrie!
PEIWOON Ahh this is simple.
SUCKS
GUY ON BUS 282. Saw him today. Hey guess what. We made eye contact. and smiled at each other. Surprized?
&& he's cute larhs! ZZZ
Ying Bin and Jeremy, shhh...
Yay!
Cya people!
Monday no school. Weets!
Thursday, 4 October 2007; 9:41 PM
Today's topic is : Jiji!
JIJI MEIMEI
If electricity comes from electrons does morality comes from morons? o.O...jkOkay, initially I thought that this quote was rather funny, but on second thoughts, this statement is generically flawed.
Reason being electrons are NOT eletricity.
However, electrons are able to CONDUCT electricity under one condition: they must be free moving ions.
Therefore all metals are able to conduct electricity in solid and molten states.
Ionic bonds are able to conduct electricity in molten and aqueous state because the atoms which form ions will become free moving after in the 'liquid' form.
Acids are able to conduct electricity when in aqueous forms because they form H+ ions and therefore can conduct electricity with this ion.
ZZ enough about chemistry.
Cya guys!
; 12:10 AM
currently emo-ing again.
changed my blogskin
turned to anon.
Apparently people STILL know my name. Reasons being:
ONE, http://duntellwen.blogspot.com is so damn famous
TWO, I mentioned my name in my posts MANY times already. Nevermind.
Today I saw this super cute guy again.
On bus 282 again.
OMG he's so cute larhs.
Didn't really expect to see him today.
But I happened to see 282 and I sprinted for that bus.
Luckily I sprinted, or else wont get to see him lerhs.
OMG he's so damn cute can?
Even Elijah agrees so.
Know why?
When I mentioned "damn cute can", he messaged me, out of a sudden.
Okay enought about Elijah.
I changed my blogskin!
& I love it. Muhaha!
randoms:
I wanna watch
- blades of glory
- step up
- 200pounds beauty
- death note
- death note 2
Maybe I can start going to videoEZY or some weird weird shops eh?
Lol.
Mum's watching 宫：野蛮王妃 the ending parts. It's getting sadder.
Kinda affecting my emoness.
I SHALL NOT BLOG EMO
Hey sister, 我不姓葛！
Please stop hitting me.
GRRR
YUHENG IM NOT EMO.
Who am i lying to man.... zzzz
Tuesday, 2 October 2007; 11:33 AM
是呀，真的完了！
与其说考试始终压力，不如就说考试是我们放松自己的时期。
熬过那漫长的试卷，之后就能休息。
平日累积下来的劳累，这个星期都放下了！
但，考试完了，就是说我们又得重新面对着老师。
明年，还需要面对着同一批人。
很陌生的熟人，
很熟悉的陌生人。
很残酷，去关心彼此的人。
很单纯，却很狡猾的人。
人，....
不知道应该喜，还是该优。
难过中寻找快乐！
享乐中自寻烦恼...
不想毕业，不向上中三。
然而，去恨不得快点离开这里。
还是在这里写最好。
一、大家都懒得读用华语写的blog
二、不用去想怎么写。
三、能打得快一些。
四、我会知道原来有人这么勤劳来读华文。
好像换个blogskin，还想加一首歌。
对了，我说过了吗？
我不厉害，我就不姓谢、我姓葛？
Monday, 1 October 2007; 7:56 PM
Exams are almost over.
Target of stalk, are you jealous?
Target of stalk's exam is coming like 2 weeks later. Haha take care larhs JYJY!
Ohh, did I mention that stalker was damn emo yesterday?
And, my tuition teacher came to "zzz" me yesterday along with Jane.
Kinda unhappy with this tuition.
Might consider changing. COS, I'm jus unhappy.
& it doesn't matter which tuition I go do, as long as I still ahve one.
Or maybe I'll consider not having one.
Or go back to Mr Sani's class. I'll guai guai'ly go to sec3 class next year lo at most.
ZZZ enough about tuition. Let's talk about stalker.
He was messaging me yesterday. He suddenly smsed me tuition class time saying "Why are you ignoring me?" then I had a hard time trying to tell him that I wasn't. Then, he started to look very emo after class.
ZZZZ.
Cant be bothered either.
I shall not let sad thoughts go into my mind since exams are coming to an end!
Jus that I did a
Because instead of Paragraph 4 and 5, I summarised 2,4 and 5.
Okay, nevermind. ZZZ
Please count the number of times I used ZZZ(excluding this).
Siannsss
Bye!