Sunday, 24 June 2007; 10:11 PM
Here I am again, complaining like nobody's business.
i cant breathe properly now.
since like, tuition time.
maybe during tuition or after tuition.
i just know that i'm sufferring like nuts.
on my back.
on my lungs.
on my brain.
on my stomach.
Okay. Back on my initial D on Channel U now.
Rather nice.
I'm just worried that I wont get enought sleep tomorrow.
I'm trying super hard not to use the inhaler for many many hours.
Just hope not to use it. At all.
sufferring, but not gonna use.
i used it like, 3 or 4 times this holidays.
i must not get addicated to that one...
i took many many many painkillers this holidays.
I must also cut down.
pain.sufferrings.
die~
; 2:23 PM
Saturday, 23 June 2007; 12:56 AM
I muddle-headed-ly just went thru another month's of motion.
I suddenl realised that i have been living each day by each day. I just wait for the next thing on the list to happen. Early in the morning, go training, train, go home, travel on bus, eat lunch, sleep, play computer, dinner, sleep. next day.
The cycle goes on.
I have no life.
Jus like typical RV-ians, I get a life only when something bad happens.
Something very very bad.
An alarm that rings off when it's about the last 3 days of holidays.
First thought "OH SHIT! Homework haven finish. Shit la die liao. Must start to chiong le lorhs"
Den for the next few days, stay up extremely late to chiong homework.
Morning wake up extremely late (maybe, afternoon, I should say)
Den eat lunch, sleep somemore (cos tired what) den wake up, dinnner time.
AFter dinner, start to chiong homework agian.
Yeah, that's my lifestyle for the past 3-4days with the exception of yesterday. I tried super hard to sleep, but I failed. Yesterday my friend called painkiller somehow pangse-ed me (or did he not? not sure) so I couldn't sleep.
I could remember whether I ate the painkiller, but the pain apparently didnt go away.
Man.. I'm supposed to be chiong-ing my homework.
Today I saw this super nice monokuroboo bag. S$10, but, not allowed to buy.
My mother always claims that I have alot of bags.
She also always claims that I have alot of shirt.
Okay, with the finicial ability of my family, the amount is considered above average.
But this holidays, I earned money. At first my mum paid me to sell otah and said "Go buy something you like." Initially, I had $20 of otah pay, but before I had a chance to go shopping, my second job came.
After my second job, before I knew it, all my money went into the bank.
And there goes "Go buy something you like."
Regarding my shirt, alot, oh realli??
Majority -- cannot fit in.
Thus, the minority are the ones I swop around with. Ask those people who see me in outside clothes most of the time.. DO I HAVE ALOT OF CLOTHES.
In fact, I'm just mix-matching.
Sometimes, I quite stuck at what to wear. Coss, there's practically nothing else to wear liao.
Sometimes, when I'm sastisified with my suit, I have to think twice. Who are the people I am gonna see today? Have they seen me in this exact suit before? All sort of weird werid worries.
Oh, people, dun misunderstand, muii mum doesn't ill treat me. I'm just here whining like a brat who doesn't know how to cherish what she has.
Today, I ransacked my WHOLE wardrobe. I actually did find some cute close which I often overlooked.
&& I threw away some of my cannot-fit-in clothes.
&& I took some of my 'home-clothes' and hung it on top for the 'go-out clothes'
Maybe it'll work. I'll just try convince myself that I HAVE alot of clothes.
Bags, I'm using the same old ones.
Sick of them liao.
Dun worry, I have more than enough.
Probably with the number of bags I have, you cannot guess my family's finicial ability. But seriously, there goes the money I earned during my holiday job.
I mean seriously, money that goes into my bank will eventually disappear, without warning.
For I dunno what reasons.
Den there goes ALL my hard work.
At least buying sth makes the money not disappear by itself.
Number of SHOCKING bags : 10 (ten)
Number of bags which I will actually bring out: 4
I'm never sastisified.
I should learn to be.
Friday, 22 June 2007; 10:31 PM
super.
i wanna sleep.
im super in pain.
ive super alot homework.
im super gonna die.
i got lotta homework!
ahh! stressed~
today i took two painkillers.
yesterday, two.
=(
; 1:17 AM
Today's physio sarked big time.
I did loads of back exercises.
Now i'm hurting like nuts.
Dun feel like updating.
But i've got nothing to do now.
Cos super in pain.
I cannt sleep.
I'm super tired, but I cant sleep.
Cos of that stupid pain.
Sigh.
My best friend as a volleyball is no longer the wall.
In fact, I have two best friends, TAPE and painkillers.
Okay, post stops here.
Night people!
Wednesday, 20 June 2007; 7:13 PM
is coming.
Tomorrow.
3.10pm.
Alexandra Hospital.
Clinic L.
Stressed.
I dunwan LONG-TERM MC!
mamaya~~
Tuesday, 19 June 2007; 6:13 PM
Nope, I'm not gonna take the
Cuzz, i'm gonna go for my 物理治疗 the day after tomorrow.
I'm kinda scared of getting long-term MC.
Imagine being from sports CCA and getting a long term MC.
What if, I have, i change CCA again?
NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!
I LOVE MY CCA, PLEASE DON'T CHANGE ME.
but it's true, volleyball doesn't need a player on long-term MC.
ha! I'm dumb!
Even my mum's hoping that I'm gonna get a long-term MC.
And my friend who has had a similar injury too.
Both of them hope that Id get a LONGLONG MC.
So that I can stop training..
Nowadays I kinda dread training even more because my back hurt like nuts.
But I won't wanna pon it, cos I love volleyball alot!
It's not that I dun like training because it's tedious, I dun like it because it's painful.
VERY
Heard that 物理治疗 involves exercising of my back.
I'm gonna siann-ly go alone.
=(
Can someone go with me?
Super sian super sian super sian.
Ohh
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Geography report
Geography reflection
Language Arts IVLE
History script
History reheasal
Saturday, 16 June 2007; 10:53 PM
Hey B girls, guess what!
Jiao Lian gave the C girls a target, that is to beat us.
I admit that they are good.
They have people with good experience.
They have good primary school players.
They have their pride, they have their say.
Thanks alot juniors.
YOu're are gonna be the batch that bring pride to RVVT.
I LOVE MY JUNIORS
shit. i'm blogging bitchy again
Friday, 15 June 2007; 7:01 AM
Please do not come to look for me... =)
Lol..
I'm super emotional now, but I decided not to blog about it, cos I'm too busy to think about being sad, so I shall just blog happy today.
Yesterday I worked 6hours.
Much fun-ner than the day before.
I went to Tyrus, Seth and one other guy... Forget his name. Think it was QiMian.
He takes Chem and Physics.
I take English.
So, yeah, all of us had fun.
Lol.
Okay, i'm crapping.
DUn feel like tellin the whole story.. So I have decided not to say.
ANyway, I saw two realli cute guys yesterday.
But @ different locations.. LOL.
Not working today.
Cos I'm gonna go sentosa.
Please do not look for me.
Byebye
Wednesday, 13 June 2007; 11:11 PM
- N
[ last ] thing you ate?
- My mum's cooked dinner
[ last ] thing u drank?
- Bubble tea. Orea crush.
[ last ] song you listened to?
- 简单爱
[ last ] thing u did? (before answering this survey)
- ACE learning. Not completed.
[ last ] movie you watched?
- Pirates.
[ last ] TV show you watched?
- Channel55 7pm show.
[ last ] person who sent you an sms?
- Zhu Feng =D
[ last ] time you cleaned your room?
- The last time I quarreled with my mum..
[ last] CD/cassette you bought?
- Never bought any before.
[ last ] time you cried?
- Last night?.
[ last ] person who you chatted online with?
- myDEAR<3 Kasey
[ last ] person you added to your friendster list?
- Ehhh.. Lemme check. Forget. One of the volleyballers.
[ last ] website you browsed?
- Jus nice. Friendster.
[ last ] person you are hated/pissed with?
- Same as laogong -- Mum
[ last ] person you were thinking of?
- Ehh? Him lurhs
[ last ] time you felt sick?
- two hours back. was an asthma attack , sorta
[ last ] 2 digits of your home phone?
- 13
[ last ] place you went to?
- Dining room
[ last ] book you read?
- romeo and juliet
[ last ] person you adored?
- Ehh, him, again =D
[ last ] person you got annoyed with?
- mama?
[ last ] person you bought a present for?
- Dominic
[ last ] person you said happy birthday to?
- "QUACK QUACK QUACK! guessit." quoted from laogong's blog.
I know who it is too..
Kinda related to me, and my past.
My last person was Clement.
I meant, Melissa, not Clement
[ last ] person who made you smile?
- Zhu Feng
[ last ] person who made you cry?
- Same as 2 questions before
har? still got more?
Are you smiling?
- Smiling at a stupid quiz? Unless the quiz smiles at me first.
2. When was the last time you met someone new?
- Ehh. Today at my work I saw some shuai ge. And 2 bastards
3. What is irritating you now?
- Lame quiz. Lotta homework. Fatigue. Asthma. Whether or not to go work tomorrow. LOADS
4. When did you last eat pizza?
- First week of holidays
5. Do you drink beer?
- shhh... =D
6. Do you have any friends who are famous?
- Me! I'm my friend and I'm famous.
7. Are you any good at poker?
- Dunno how to play?
8. What do you want?
- for THIS him to become like THAT him.
9. Are you tired?
- ya.
10. Last spoken words you heard?
- BYE!
11.Do you know anyone named John?
- Ya, but dun remember where?
12. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
- My pipi, my laptop and my handphone + pouch
13.Pepsi or Coke?
- Pepsi
14. Have you ever thrown up?
- durhs...
15.But did you ever throw up while kissing someone?
- Yucks!!
16.Who is the last person you hugged?
- Ehh, THIS him. Not THAT
17.Why are you doing this?
- I'm bored.
18.Are you restless?
- ya
19.Is your computer a laptop?
- yes
20. Are you allowed to stay up later than 10pm on a weeknight?
- yah
21.How many myspace views do you have?
- BLOGGER HERE???
22.Do you believe dreams come true?
- no
23.Last song you heard?
- jiandanai
24.Do you like Batman?
- yucks!
25.Who is in the room with you?
- no one at home 'cept 4 me
26.Whose house did you go to last night?
- mine
27.Who was the last person whom you said i love you to?
- "my laopo??" REALLY? ME?? <3 u too!
Him lurhs..
28.what was the last thing you ate
- same qns.
29.What was the last thing you did?
- the qns above, type, think of my ans
30.What is the closest item near you that is blue?
- blue ink on paper. 3cm away.
31.What are you wearing on your feet?
- nothing.
32.What instant messaging service do you use?
- windows live messenger
33.What is your favorite website?
- my own blog
34.What is your favorite pair of shoes?
- dunno. i noe which one i dun like though
35.What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
- Neither. I like dresses, if not, skirts
36.What is the last movie watched?
- same qns
37.What do you currently hear right now?
- aircon, and keypad
38.When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
- longer than i could remember
39.When did you last take a shower?
- afternoon after my job
40.Where's your favorite place to be?
- BEING ALONE, or BEIN IN CROWD
41.Where is your mom?
- Dinner.
42.Where do you sleep?
- on my bed. duh.
43.Where do you shop the most?
- DUN shop nowadays. no $$, so muz earn.
44.Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
- buy~
45.Where in the house are you?
- bedroom
46.Why did you pick your background?
- cos I designed it for myself
47.Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
- cos I loved him
48.Are you happy with where you are?
- no feelings
49.Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
- i guess so.
50.Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
- Depends on how he speaks
; 9:11 PM
[x] I like skinny jeans.
[x] Music is my life.
[x] I write poetry/songlyrics.
[x] My hair covers part of my face.
[ ] I wear band shirts.
[ ] I know who Jeffree Star is.
[x] I wear/wore converse.
[ ] I wear/wore vans.
[ ] I wear eyeliner.
[ ] I have or want my lip pierced.
[ ] I had/have listen to Saves TheDay, Chiodos, Thursday and/or MyChemical Romance.(MCR very emo meh.)
Total= 5
[x]My love life sucks
[ ] I'm in a band.
[ ] My MSN name has an x in it
[ ] I understand that My ChemicalRomance is not emo.(more of think it isnt.)
[ ] I also understand that Green Day is not emo.
[ ] I know what mosh means.
[ ] I sit in corners often.
[ ] most of the time I dislike MTV.
[x] I take pictures of myself a lot.
[x] Especially ones where you can'tsee my whole face.
Total= 3
[x] I am lost without a cd player/myiPod/phone
[ ] I know that emo is not just a stereotype
[ ] I have/had thick oversized glasses
[ ] I have/had a mohawk.
[x] I've worn black nail polish.
[x] I hate my mom.
[x] I hate my dad.
[ ] I hate where I live.
[x]Black is a great color technically speaking it isn't a color
[x]I do/have cut myself.
Total= 6
[x] Right now I am listening to music
[ ] I know what hxc and sxe mean.
[x] Blogging = Love and addiction.
[x] Hot Topic doesn't scare me.
[ ] I wear studded belts.
[ ] I've had a body part signed by a band.
[ ] I've cried while listening toDashboard Confessional.
[ ] I have/ had dyed/want to dye myhair black.
[x] My closet is mostly filled withblack or dark clothes.
[x] I cry a lot
[ ] I write on myself/or sometimes
[x] I have been called emo before.
[] I hate being called emo.
total = 6
add all the numbers together then multiply that by 3.
(20x3)= 60
60% emo...
; 4:04 PM
Tian, I'm so bloody tired.
Guess how long i worked?
I stood there for FIVE bloody hours
woMAN, I'm so bloody vulgar today.
I shall stop bloodying lerhs. =D
I staarted work at 10am.
I stoppded work at 4pm.
Super tired. Super super super super tired.
Imagine standing at Clementi MRT station holding a stack of at least 3kg flyers continously for 5 hours.
That's what I did.
9.50am, I reached my tuition centre, collected my flyers and took MRT back to Clementi.
10am sharp, I started work.
From 10 to 12noon, I DISTRIBUTED flyers continously, without sitting nor resting.
Only till about 12.10pm my DEAREST tutiion friend came to my rescue.
He help me refill my water bottle.
When he came back with my water, I literally gluped down water.
From a fully fillled bottle, it became half filled.
Haha! My bag of course, would be lighter too...
My tuition friend and I took bus to Jurong East. Cos he told me that there's more people at JUrong East. I was kinda expecting alot of RV-ians today, but no, unfortunately.
Two of my tuition friends was given Jurong East as their location. They finished their approxmately 300 flyers each within 2 hours.
My friend and I who were given bukit butok and clementi as our location respectively, were 1/3 our way in 2 hours time.
Kindly compare the rate
My bukit butok friend eventually like me, went to Jurong East.
I went for lunch first, then to JE library to try my luck for RV-ians.
FOund 3 seniors in the end.
That took me one hour, so I didn't count it.
After that, I met up with my bukit butok friend.
Apparently, my 2 Jurong East friends were at Queenstown giving out flyers.
So the both of us (Clementi + Bukit Butok) stayed at JE.
Finally finished our flyers after 2 more hours. Super tired.
I wanna announce : I WANNA SLEEP
Guess what. I'm working tomorrow again. I'll NEVER wanna take Clementi again. Or maybe I have to...
Sigh ~.. Clementi is so ulu...
Comon jus gimme Jurong East
SCHOOL LIFE QUIZ
; 12:19 AM
myuah freakking tagboard
Tuesday, 12 June 2007; 11:59 PM
; 2:18 PM
Byebye!
; 1:39 AM
Last night, I stayed over at my cousin's house. So am I tonight.
Suddenly felt like crying.
Last night, after dinner, I was on my uncle's car back to my cousin's house, to stay overnight.
I looked out of the window, everythings looks to peaceful and quiet. The trees weren't moving, they weren't even swaying. They wasn't any birds anywhere along.
As the car moved on, it suddenly made me think that -- everything around me was actually static. The drver in front was quite, everything hardly moved. I suddenly thought that what was moving along the streets (the trees, the buildings) wasn't moving.
I hate interaction
Why am i born a human??
I wished for no interaction.
I wished for not being human again, anymore.
Sometimes, I wished I was dead.
I thought my suicidal thoughts only came when I'm alone.
Yet i'm now together with my cousins, they kept on talking, yet i'm here feeling suicidal....
I wanna cry. I wanna die.
relax, I won't do it
I feel like some bloody jerk....
Today, I was enjoying myself with my cousins.
ANd I totally forgot about him.
Ohh, which him?
it's secret -)
I miss him.
I miss him, now.
I just wished for us to meet in lala land today.
Harnee, I love you.
I'm sorry for what I have done.
Next, for people who spammed my blog.
I played bitchy.
And I wont give a big care. I dun fucking care
YOu hate me.
I'd treat it as a compliment.
I wished I died.
If you really hated me, I would love you if you could help to end my life.
Unfortunately, no one's nice enough to help me.
I'm gonna remove my tagboard when I get home.
I jus wan my harnee now
Oh by the way, happy birthday to
MY DEAREST OOB DIDI CLEMENT
tHANKS FOR not allowing me to go for your BIRTHDAY PARTYOkay, tata!
I'm not gonnna sucide, so relax.
I love you guys.
Thanks ZhuFeng for your mental support on Saturday night Sunday morning. I felt better =)
Thanks Jolene I love yeah..
Thanks cynthia for encouragement.
Finally,
I love my DEAR <3
Saturday, 9 June 2007; 10:31 PM
I rather have the comment board, for, I dunno what reason.
Yeah.. A tagboard is too convinent for spamming.
Comments usually makes it more inconvinent therefore when a potential spammer comes to a blog without tagboard, he'd be too lazy to comment a spam.
Lol.
Crapping.
no sense.
I'm tired.
NIGHTS!
; 6:17 PM
I scolded my junior during training today
U had better not agigitate me. Or imma slap u. in your face
U had better scram. Or imma make u cry. . playing bitchy
Lastly, u better gimme that respect as a senior. Who's the senior, you or me?
Where has the respect gone to?
Imagine the C girls volleyball team getting into netball. Check out their discipline.
I know you girls would sooner or later get to come to my blog. They'll just rush in for the sake of reading this post and spamming my tagboard and screamming their asses off about how wrong I am. I'm playing bitchy, so what?
Lesson One: Netball tradition
1. When you see the coach, greet the coach.
2. When you see your seniors, greet your seniors.
3. When your coach have given instructions, you had better listened, or you'd pull your team down.
Nevertheless, this ain't netball. I'm getting outta my dreams. Dreams never would last.
I came in naviely thinking to influence them to copy the netball tradition.
HOW NAVIE!
This will never happen.
They don't even have the basic respect of listening to their seniors when they speak.
Not talking back to seniors? DREAM ON.
Well, I was like them, in netball.
I spoke bad.
I went against my seniors.
Bahh....
Forget it. I'll just pretend nothing has happened. I'm just a nobody.
A nobody with equalivalent or lousier skills than the C division.
But, so what if you better?
I'm climbing upwards.
You may be good, but i'm working towards better.
In terms of physical age, i'm older than all of you.
In terms of mental age, i'm much older than most of you.
Dearest C girls, please respect your seniors.
& most of all, our dear coach.
He's a nice coach, so be nice to him too.
Whatever. I'm crappying
Just work hard for a better RVVT
RV
ACE!
; 2:23 PM
I have actually been complimented but I never knew. Yeah, this blogger's referring to me.
Yay!
You're hopeless. Literally and I hate you. Fcuk euu
Wenwen
Friday, 8 June 2007; 9:42 PM
Which meant, it's the one year two days.
There's a total of 210 posts including this.
and nobody understands why there's only 210 posts up till today. Because I have too many things to hide, too little things to say
My post
Who am I hiding from?
What is it that I am hiding?
How do I want to hide this?
When did I start to hide?
Why do I want to hide?
Who?
I don't know. It's you. & I hate you. You know who you are, my dear
What?
I'm hiding, my mind.
I'm hiding, my heart.
I'm hiding, my soul.
I'm hiding, myself.
I'm hiding, my speech.
I'm hiding, my action.
How?
By closing myself down.
By shutting up.
By not speaking.
By being static.
By not having movements.
By stoning.
& by dying this spot here
Why?
That's because nobody understands what I need to say
Where is my freedom of speech.
Everytime I speak, somebody's bound to comment.
Even my mother and my sister
Guess what, I'm here blogging about here, she's there at the other side of singapore reading my post.
Nobody cares... nobody fucking cares
I'm blogging emo. I'm blogging bitchy.
That's because nobody cares.
Dunneed read between the lines.
I'm attracting your attention.
fuck you if you really think so. I jus hate that sister of mine
Another reason, it that.......
Hiding what I think, would make your life easier.
Understanding me is never easy.
Talking to me to me makes your life worse.
I'm such a liar.
Cos I believe,
lying to you about what I feel,
would make your life easier.
would make it easier for you to speak to me.
would not add to your already stressed life.
I feel so insecure with you. BUT, I love you
Wenwen
Thursday, 7 June 2007; 2:50 AM
睡不着。
已经好多晚没睡好了。
我累，但没睡意。
算了，
反正脑子里一塌糊涂。
全都是他的样子。
过去的事情，
慢慢都在晚上回来。
像是卷录影带。
从前的一切一切。
慢慢再到赚回来。
第一次的偶遇，
第二次的相遇。
第三次的约会。
看的第一场电影。
掉的第一滴泪。
分享的第一封喜讯。
它们，都回来了。
几个小时前，我尝试着找他。
按了他的号码，却不敢拨出去。
我的勇气都到哪去了？
你每次问我"发生什么事?"
我回答“没事。”
你还问我，你真没是吗?
我装得很坚强说“真的"
到底要骗你到什么时候。
骗你好累。
骗自己更累。
不，我已经没能力了...
哭，不由得我决定。
笑，装得好勉强。
骗你，我错。
不骗你，我大错特错。
宁愿我自己的痛自己扛，也不愿让你插上一脚。
连我也承受不了的，你怎么可能可以承受。
我自私，什么都不对你透露。
其实，....我好像全都对你说。但我没有看你受伤的勇气。对不起。我宁愿保护你
大吐口水了。
现在好想睡觉!
希望明天你会回来。
晚安！
Wednesday, 6 June 2007; 8:15 PM
I have nice nice-ly uploaded two of my 阅读报告s.. YA. I have nicely let you take it. No copyright. Just don't overuse it, before teachers come after me.
; 6:31 PM
I've been wasting my life
Since young, I never actually studied, cos back in my primary school, life was a bed of roses. Nothing actually mattered. I rememebered once, I never studied for my P2 CA1, and I eventually topped the class. That was the first time I was amamzed that life was so easy here. Because I was a transfer student from Red Swastika to Xinmin Pri. My first day in school was actually their CA1. & I topped my class. Or even perhpas, the school. I wasn't sure.
That was the first time I did so well. And that was the best report card I dared show anyone. All 3 subject has the tens digit as a numeral "9".
Apparently then, some of the "2A top students" super buay song me.
Cos I took away their first position in school.
That year, I was allocated to 2E, the class that wasn't given the label of 'smart students'. Apparently one of my neighbours from 2A, the mother is uber proud of her child. I had this feeling this child actually despised me, even the mother. Jus merely because i wasn't labelled a studnet from '2A'.
Unfortunately, I let my neighbour and the mother down. The following year I was promoted to 3A. haha! OWNage!
Imagine life to be like this in RV.
RV's life is a competition. Just take a look at Terence. Look at how Competitive he is. Just a background information about Terence. He is the guy sitting beside me in class, and apparently the one who
Like, wth! He'll own me in all subjects.
Let's just see. Imagine sitting beside someone who just keep telling you how well he socred for each subject when you're facing papers like 30/60, 23/50 and he's like getting 50/60 and 42/50...
IT'S A MAJOR STRESS CAN?
Lol.
I'm not used to compeition.
In nature, if animals cannot adapt in a condition, they either move away or die.
In school, if students cannot adapt in a condition, they either move away or die.
It's all the same.
I've been wasting my life
So I'm not gonna waste any time from now.
I wanna be like in my primary school, owning that neighbour of mine.
This time, I'd wanna work to survive, dunneed to own.
Miss Or, if you're reading this post, please
do not change my seat nor Terence's
Do not misunderstand. It's a good experience to sit with Terence because he adds a lot of pressure towards me. That's how I scored
DO NOT CHANGE, PLEASE~~~~~~
I'll starting chionging my life away, and not wasting it anymore.
Well, but I won't be study like some kinda geek.
I'll still post, I'll still go for trainings, I'll still work towards the team, I'll still talk to people. I jus won't chiong my life away larhs. Cos neither do I wanna waste my life by studying all the time.
Gimmme some time. I'll work hard. I promise.
wenwen =)
Oh my tian?? Why did i promise this? What if I cannot make it.
Aye whatever. A blog is public. I cant take back my words anymore.
So just work liao lorhs.. ='( Jyjy pwpw!
; 2:12 AM
I'm so sleepy. but I can't bear to off the computer.
I've been so tired. I fell asleep on the computer table immediately after I sent my physics assignment to Ms Tan.
Guess what. I was awoken by my mother, who has just came home.
Like probably, 30mins ago.
I went into her room. We kinda chatted for a while.
She went out for a couple of drinks.
Today, was probably one of the times I chatted with my mum without having to fight, over a period of perhaps, couple of months.
She's always cutest after she drank some.
Always.
We never have to quarrel. And, she spoke my lingo.
Yeah, it's 2.15am now, I'm bloody tired, but i'll struggling to think.
WHY SO?
I never(rarely) get the chance to talk to her, but why, late in the night.
FOr ever less than half an hour.
She's always so fun, nice and happy during this period of time.
Yet, it never lasts.
I love my mother, now.
Suddenly, I realised my love for her is so conditional.
I've been so selfish.
Since i've became a teenager.
I wished she was like this.
In fact, I wished everyone could be like this.
Tolorant, talking to me.
SOme others just can't be bothered to talk to me.
Whatever.
I guess I make be drunk. I'm blogging nonsense.
I just wished for someone to
But I know I'm just in dreamland.
One day, dropping to the ground is still best.
Taking the advantage of myslef being drunk, I would like to say something.
I LOVE MY MUM!
Lol.
I'm drunk, but trust me, I didn't take acohal.
All spelling mistakes are natural.
I cant spell.
Whatever.
cos I hate euu
Tuesday, 5 June 2007; 11:45 AM
[#01]
My age: 12year 17days
His age: 12Years 2months exactly.
lasted: 3months
broke up: His best friend stole me away, well, sorta.
[#02]
My age: 12years 4Months 8Days
His age: 12years 4Months 6Days
Lasted: 4months
broke up: He say dunwan relationship
[#03]
My age: 13years 3months 18days
His age: 15years 7months 10Days
Lasted: 2months
broke up: i told him i was two-timing
[#04]
My age: 13years 3months 20days
His age: 15years 4months 26days
Lasted: 6DAYS
broke up: @#$%$#@#$%$#@!
[#05]
My age: 13years 5months 17days
His age: 13years 3months exactly.
Lasted: 9months
broke up: bacdoifwmkdackaerc larhs.. read between the lines, there's meaning somewhere in the middle.
I had 5 =D
I'm tryin to keep it under 10 when I reach 18.
Possbile? NO
AHHH!
Whatever.
Dear see I so guai? not like u. got 8. I only 5 =D
Number 2 and 5 are both younger than me.
Number 3 and 4 are two years older tha me or more.
Ahh.
Number 5 is youngest, and also the one I spend longest with.
& the one I doted on most.
& the one whom never will return.
I'm currently 14years 2months 22days old.
; 11:08 AM
Darn, why hasn't he removed me from his blog?
Or maybe he doesn't know that I'm in his blog.
Whatever, he's stupid.
That's not the point.
I've been so childish.
Okay this isn't the post either.
My Point
RVHS CIP
This post is kindly dedictatd to all RVians by me Chia Pei Woon.
If you're an RVian and you dun mind wasting one of your posts on your blog, just copy and paste this important announcement to your post. =D
Who? : ALL RVians and more.
What?: To attempt to form the world's longest chain of aluminum cans
How? : By collecting as many aluminum drink cans as possible
When?: Collection is on the 12 July to 26July
Why? : For critically ill children at Make-A-Wish Foundation (Singapore) Ltd
Where? : RVHS
By: Nicholas Aw Wenlong of 4D(2006)
End of announcment
To: Dear friends of Chia Pei Woon not from RV
If you want to help me school in this project, please collect the aluminum drink cans and message/call me anytime this holiday and I will fly down and collect it from you.
AFter all, it's a meaningful event isn't it?
Should I not be able to answer your call, please drop me an sms or call a few hours later.
Because most of the time, if you call in the morning, I wouldn;t be able to answer
Cos I'd be at training.
maybe try in the afternoon..
THANKS!
Monday, 4 June 2007; 10:30 PM
My DEAR <3 has a stead!!
WTF not.
I dun
Jealous
D=
Jiayous DEAR
Saturday, 2 June 2007; 9:05 PM
1.Honestly what color is your shirt?
- DARK GREEN
2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
- Thinking when will my breathing recover like normally?
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
- survey lorhs.
4. Honestly, have you ever been in love ?
- Yeah, and I recently got out of it. =X
5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
- Yeah, I fought with my mum today.
6. Honestly, do you watch disneychannel?
- used to, but not nowadays.
7.Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- My cute lil' cousin as of the post 2 posts before.
8.Honestly, are you jealous of somebody right now?
- Yeah.
9. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
- People trying to get me into their world when Im trying to stay in the own world of mine.
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
- Narhs.
11. Honestly, do you use anyone?
- Yeah. In fact, I'm using everyone. Lol no larhs. It depends on how u define "use". Lol. U know what I mean....
12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
- Yeah. I wished he would appear at my doorstep suddenly like he used to do to send me a chocolate bar.
13. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't like?
- Like, durhs. not only fren sia. More than fren. Like, relatives?
14. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
- yeah.. I still do...
15. Honestly, does anyone like you?
- No.
The whole world hates me.
DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
- Blast music into my ears and pretend I cant hear anything.
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
- I dunno. I dun say. Later I freak u guys out. It's sth I did out of my mind. Just today.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- Ya, unfortunately.
4. Do you swear when you're mad?
- yeah, most of the time.
5. When was the last time you really cried?
- This afternoon.
6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
- Yeah, this afternoon.
7. What usually makes you cry?
- Anything understand that is negative????
8. Are you normally a happy person?
- No. I'm ever so sad.
9. Does being with your friends makes you happy?
- Please kindly define 'frens' and who exactly are my friends.
10. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?
- Of course larhs.
Who doesn't?
; 9:50 AM
Cos, I felt like it.
Today's a bad day.
Therefore I have decided to stay at home.
Shut the room door.
Blast my MP3.
SLEEP
No phone calls pls. Snorez
; 12:01 AM
[ ] You have to make your bed every day.
[ ] You have to do chores.
[ ] I have a time that I have to get off the phone and computer.
[ ] You have a bedtime.
[ ] You have to earn your money.
[x] You can't have friends over unless your room is clean.
[x] You can't have a boyfriend/girlfriend. [although i have one XD]
[x] You can't be friends with someone unless your parents know them.
TOTAL: 3
[x] You can't go shopping by yourself.
[ ] Your mom tells you what to wear.
[x] You have to look for "good deals" on clothes, otherwise you can't buy it.
TOTAL: 2
[x] You get grounded for stupid things.
[ ] You have a time limit for the computer/video games/tv.)
[ ] You have to get along with your sibling(s) otherwise you get grounded.
[ ] You have to share your room.
TOTAL: 1
[x] You have to ask to go to a party/friends house in a few days advance.
[ ] You can't go anywhere without a parent/adult.
[ ] You can't stay home alone.
[ ] You have a babysitter.
TOTAL: 1
[ ] You're not allowed to have a tv/gaming system in your room.
[ ] You can't be on the computer without someone watching your every move.
[ ] You can't have a door in your bedroom.
TOTAL: 2
[x] Your parents get mad if you don't want to do something simple that they ask.
[x] You can't swim without an adult watching you.
[x] You can't have a friend of the opposite sex over, unless they are family.
TOTAL: 3
Grand total: 12
Multiply your total by 8.
My parents control 96% of my LIFE
OMG!
Mummy's girl.
Friday, 1 June 2007; 10:57 PM
I'm in shock again. Check out this picture.
I went to ntrix today. Guess who I recieved for my peer evalaution?
Look at the picture lorhs
Some Sharon from one of the classes in RV. Yeah, how weird, the best part is,
DO I KNOW HER?
whatever~
Today, I sprained my finger in training.
Today, I made fun of jiaolian again.
Today, I got married.!! Yay!!!
Laogong I lubbs euu.. I see euu in training okays?
OMG he's damn shuai lorhs. Okay, I'll tell euu the truth. I went to Jack's Place for dinner with a long long long long long distance cousin. OMG I very long never see him he's now DAMN super shuai.. Ohh... ANd ever so cute. Esp tat cute smile. OMG electricity.......
But, I'm not serious about this cousin of mine.
Cos I'd only love one guy, (period).
But I'd jus try and forget this guy, asap.
Yeah, so, happy birthday,
Goodbye.
* my long long long long long distance cousin derhx sms all darn cute de lorhs... But his shortforms very hard to understand. Well, I'll try inteprete it, cos he too cute le lorhs....
** I enjoyed today's dinner, though none of my parents were there. Ok, only me, my cousin, my other guys cousin(that shuai one de younger brother), my other gal cousin(de older sister), and my aunt(mum) uncle(dad). Kinda stiff while eating, but I still enjoyed it. Cos he very funny what.
*** I was sent home. The car very squeezy. My cousin borrowed my phone to play game. So lame, but he very cute when playing game.
Ohh, this is infatuation?(lol i failed spelling in P1)
SUper shuai.
With my cute lil cousin, I guess I should be able to forget that guy very quickly.
Well, i can't blame that guy, it's not his fault.
Today, I tried making him a birthday card, but I didn't dare to give him. I jus tore it away.
Sorry myDEAR <3, I wasted your efforts, but I really didn't dare.
I went JE today. With myDEAR.. Bought presents for all my birthday. I bought for him, but I dunno whether or not to give him.
Or jus write the name as "KASEY"
Whatever~
270520071428
senseless.
He'll understand how much he has hurt me by this set of number, but I bet he won't come.
I bet he hates me now.
WHATEVER
JUS SHUT UP. LOL
READERS, stop reading.
I said stop reading..
LOL.
Happy birthday, the 1693 guy.
I loved you.
&I love you
& I still do.
Happy birthday, & G0odbye.